So... I guess I should write up another post for 2015. I mean, I did promise to write up another post, this one possibly focusing on work, so here it is.
First though, not much new has happened since my previous post. Got my water heater fixed after discovering that it was a potential fire hazard. That was fun. Also been trying to find a new company to work for, but that hasn't been going too well. Otherwise, most of my time has been dealing with work and school, leaving me with almost no time to socialize.
I have a few problems with my job. The first is that software engineering doesn't seem to be the direction I want my life to go. I'm currently doing law school, and I'm almost half way through, and the more I do that, the less interesting software engineering is. Though it may just be where I work. I don't know for sure. On top of that, I'm not finding my work to me stimulating. I find most of it to be mentally and emotionally draining, while I get this sense that all we're doing is pointless busy work. And when I get a chance to do development work, something that our development team hasn't had a chance to do since we're currently assigned to assist a testing team trying to make a customer deadline, I find my development work to have a significant lack of direction outside of "Do this task" with a lot of negative repercussions if I screw up while almost no reward to it if I succeed. I also feel that, as far as team dynamics go, my opinion counts the least, though that may be because I'm the lowest ranked software engineer (2 instead of a 3, which is what my other teammates are), or, maybe I just have stopped caring as much. To compound matters, I feel like our direct manager is phoning it in, and doesn't give a damn about the team or our project. On top of that, our manager seems to take issue with us utilizing our CEO's open door policy (it's a small company, and our CEO treats our team, which is an R&D team, as his own pet project, so most, if not all, of our direct management actually comes from our CEO), and tends to get angry at team members who go to our CEO to get answers on some of our questions. To be fair, this is going over our project manager's head, but she is fairly ineffective at what being a manager that historically this was the only way to get results. I just normally feel so drained after finish work and school in a day that I question whether waking up the next morning is really worthwhile.
On top of that, with law school on my resume, most places I end up applying for just end up tossing my resume into the trash can. I think I'm going to remove it from my resume, at least so I can get my foot in the door. Possibly only mention that I have personal obligations that require me to leave Monday through Thursday at 5:30. I don't know how comfortable I am with that solution, but if I want to eliminate my 3 hour round trip commute to law school each day, I need to come up with some sort of solution.
Anyway, it's getting kind of late, and I have to rinse and repeat my whole day, despite me not really wanting to. There are more things I would like to talk about, but I won't be able to cover them while also being able to get some sleep, so ~Night
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