Been Neglecting

I guess it's been a while since I last posted to my blog, though this is more of laziness than anything else. It's not that I've been any busier than I use to be, or that I have had more going on, it's just, I don't know. Each passing day I find it harder and harder to care about things that, a year ago I cared deeply about. My love of gaming and anime have almost completely disappeared, and I tend to spend my time alone more often then is probably healthy, though, who would I spend time with? Kira, one of my friends in Orlando, tend to be too busy with school and about a dozen theater projects, Gina lives in Maleborne now since she started at FIT about 2 years ago, Aaron now only calls me when he needs his computer fixed. And I have never been adept at making new friends... Am I such a horrible person that the people I know wish to spend no time with me?

School's not going any better. I'm currently on Academic Probation after last semester, and each day sees my will to succeed go lower. It's not that I don't like learning, just, College is designed in a way that is currently costly, uninspiring, and, well, sometimes, unneeded. I doubt I'd ever amount to anything that would need a college education, so why am I here? Though, I guess the uninspiring part is my fault. I mean, people who go on to college should be self driven. I was back at MCC, but now... It's just, I don't see much point in it all. Hell, most days I don't see any point in rising from my bed.

Maybe everyone hates me because I'm too depressing, or maybe because I'm too useless...

On the plus side, I've been reading a lot. Been reading tons of fiction books, and one of these days, I'll write something worth reading... maybe... assuming I don't do something stupid first. But, I own so many books now, it would be a shame not to read them all. I may not be able to find a boy who is actually interested in me, but at least I have books to read... Ya, I know, two completely unrelated things, but it's 1:30 in the morning here, so I should be allowed to be incoherent.

Anyway, I have work tomorrow morning (that's right, a blog post where I don't complain about my job), so ~night!