Finals Week 08

Well, it's finals week. I have my first two exams tomorrow, and my third one on Thursday. I know I'm pretty much screwed on my Semiconductor's class, but I should be able to pull off a good grade on my statics test (assuming I do some more studying). My computer Organization class isn't till Thursday, which means my free time on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday morning will be spent studying for that exam... at least, I'll try to be doing that.

Though, part of tomorrow afternoon I'm going to be doing some Christmas shopping with Kira. She doesn't actually need to do any more Christmas shopping, but she's still willing to keep me company. Since I don't have a lot of funds at this moment (33 to last me till whenever I get my next paycheck from my job up here in Orlando. My boss is normally good at paying me on time, but there have been more than a few instances where I got 3 weeks worth of pay at once... due to lack of pay in previous weeks), I'm just going to focus on getting some gifts for the people up here, since for my family and for the bulk of my friends, I'll be able to give them their gifts on Christmas day, or very close to then.

Ok, the real reason I'm writing this is because I really don't want to study. Everytime I study, I'm able to do 3 to 5 problems with out... well... problem, but then I hit a question that I can't solve, that causes me to bang my head against the wall in frustration until I want to throw my book into the nearest wall. After that, I kind of feel kind of stupid. And I don't do anymore studying for the evening. That hasn't happened yet, but... I don't know. A part of is under the crazy impression that, by somehow not studying, the test won't come. I know it's madness. I know it makes as much sense as some of the urban fantasy books I read do (speaking of which, if you haven't read any of the Harry Dresden books by Jim Butcher, you're missing out), but... I never said (or gave the impression) that I'm sane. Of course, another part of me feels growing dread and apprehension at the prospects of the oncoming tests. And the best solution my mind has for that type of anxiety isn't a healthy solution... Though I haven't done anything remotely like that for... 2 weeks? I think. Time blurs together way too much.

Of course, I also quit EvE 2 weeks ago, so maybe that was contributing to everything as well. I know I haven't really gotten more social, and I haven't been looking to find a solution to my lack of boyfriend problem. Or maybe it's the extra lamp I put in my room (I like light... being inside with out light is bad. Being outside with artificial light is also bad though.)Or maybe I'm on the verge of some sort of breakdown. I don't really know.

Anyway, I need to get back to studying... so ~Night