Haven't done much in the last 24 hours, well, out side of work. Still, I promised a post today, and I'm going to try to deliver. It'll help keep my mind off of others things I want to do anyways.
I'd really like to quit my job at home, but since I currently use a vehicle provided to me by my parents, I doubt that's going to happen anytime soon... I just don't like dealing with them.. My mom's always a nervous wreck, and my Dad's a manipulative person who just always gets on my nerves. I don't really have a problem with my mom, but my dad... I get so filled with resentment, anger, frustration, guilt, and a few other emotions when I think about him, that I begin to think that it might be better to disable my thinking processes then to have to think about him again, and it gets worse when I'm around him. Combine that with my normal less than perky mood, and, well, I guess that might explain my lack of posts, and my mental stability.
It's not that he's a bad person or anything, since I know I'm making him seem worse than he really is, it's just that... he makes me so frustrated and upset, and I don't see any positive way to see him less. And I dread the idea of cutting him, or any one else in my family, out of my life. Between eliminating myself from all family connections and living life more alone then I currently do or significantly lessing my lifespan, well, I'm not going to say which one looks more appealing, but... well...
I'm going to call it a night, and try to get myself distracted by some amv's. Until tomorrow anyway, when I have to go to my other job, the one my dad set up with one of his friends because he thinks I'm too incompetent to do anything..... anyway, ~Night.
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