Well, to answer the question, my gamerscore is only 4,399 points. Which is strange, because I didn't know you could get a number ending in something other than 5 or 10. I don't have a lot of free time to play my 360 though, and it's at my parents house... and I don't play games for the gamer score. I play a game because, well... I enjoy that game. There are things I enjoy in games, and going out to collect x number of flags, or doing something ridiculously hard and tedious, isn't why I play games. Also, the type of games I tend to enjoy are largely their arcade games, though with the way their service has been lately, I haven't even been able to play some of the ones I purchased before hand, because since I'm no longer on my original system (stupid Red Ring Of Death last year) I can't play the full version of any game tied to my original 360 with out being fully logged in =(.
So far, I hate my statics class. It's a lot of vector mathematics. We were not meant to do 3 dimensional analysis on a 2 dimensional sheet of paper. Or at least, those of us who can't draw weren't. That and 3 dimensional object was always my largest problem in calc 3. And also the teacher can't teach... and the 160 students in the class... ya... I don't like the class so far.
Right now I'm in the library, since my next class has been canceled because the teacher has an out of town conference to attend to on Digital Microwave Tranmissions or something. I didn't really have a good night last night (which was when I started typing everything above the bar), just... I haven't been feeling too good, and I guess I mean both physically and mentaly.
Physically, I don't want to eat. The thought of food almost makes me want to vomit. That doesn't mean I don't eat, just I'm eating less. And drinking less soda as well. I guess that's kind of a good thing, since that means less out of pocket expenss to food, but since it's not me not wanting to eat, and more me getting sick if I do eat, I doubt that's healthy. I've also been sneezing and coughing a lot more, though I don't know off the top of my head if there are any sicknesses that combine "food makes you want to vomit" with "I sneeze a lot". Hopefully it'll go away soon.
Mentaly though, it's the same things I've been dealing with since I got out to UCF. Largely lack of people to do things with/talk to/hang out with. It also doesn't help that, over the weekend and Sunday night (ie, Friday Night, Saturday Night, and Sunday Night) I got a combined of like 10 hours of sleep =(. So I was pretty exhausted yesterday. Friday and Saturday night's lack of sleep had to do with me doing things with friends in Manatee County, and with me having to go into work early on Saturday and Sunday morning. The lack of sleep on Sunday night though was because my room mate didn't get off the phone until like 2 or 3 am. And they took the call inside the dorm room because it was 40 degrees outside (ok, it's Florida. The extent for what stores sell down here for cold weather is either a thicker than normal T-shirt, or an ultra-thin jacket.) On top of that though, it's some of the things my roommate said on the phone that also bothered me. I don't know if I was the center of the conversation, and I know it's kind of concieted to think so, but... I don't know. It just... felt kind of like I was the subject of the conversation. Espically because my roommate said that they couldn't talk freely on the matter with current company. But it wasn't like it was insultive... just... it seemed to be about something I don't like to share with people, but due to me living with my room mate I ended up sharing it with them (and no, I haven't posted about it on this blog, and I currently have no plans to do so yet. It is one of the reasons why I tend to get depressed easily though), and they didn't have a problem about it when I told them about it, but I guess the way they said it on the phone implied a problem. Of course, I always assume the worst with anything, so hopefully that's the case here. I don't want to try to clarify the matter because I don't want to get branded as someone who doesn't allow others their privacy, but... there's an event coming to Orlando my roommate wants to hit, but since they don't have a car, I might take them. On the way to the event I'll probably ask them to clarify their opion on the matter. Then there was a lot of other, little stuff through out the week (non-roommate related) that taken by themselves wouldn't cause me any grief, but each one compounded upon each other, so by Monday night I really wasn't in a proper state of mind. I almost did something last night that would have been really, really stupid. That's all I'm going to say. (I can still use that phrase even if it took half the blog to tell)
I know I occasionaly think this, but once again I'm thinking about quiting gaming altogether and just watching anime/reading manga. I think I get more satisfaction from reading manga (currently just started After Class Nightmare and still reading Tsubasa Resevoir Chronicles) then I do from playing EvE. And a lot of the games that are currently out right now are less fun and more immersive. I don't know... it's just... I find Manga and books and anime to be more calming then gaming. Though with those passive forms of entertainment, my mind constantly tries to create side/different/parrallel story paths for everything, and that gets annoying.
Anyway, I'm going to get logging. I got a decent amount of sleep this morning (like 6 or 7 hours) and I got to spend some time doing some things other than working, school, or school work (I listened to my Zune for like 3 hours this morning trying to relax a little bit) so I shouldn't have to worry about me doing anything... bad tonight. So... ~Night!
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