Crash and Burn

I'm not in a good mood at the moment =(, and there's a lot of reasons for that. The number one reason is that my Hard Drive crashed. Which meant I ended up spending three hundred dollars to replace both the drive and the OS. The reason why I needed to replace the OS was that HP is cheap, and instead of sending me an OS disc with the PC, they instead put the OS files on a separate partition on the drive.

I have other things too that I kind of want to complain about, but I do currently have it better than one of my friends, at least, according to his blog.I have a job (although not the one I would like to have), and I have been accepted at the University of Central Florida, so I am doing pretty well in the whole skeem of things. But still, I have reasons, some of which I haven't posted here. Still, I wish i could make him feel better... I'd post a comment, but I don't think I could offer anything useful. Instead, I'd either sound like some sort of cheap, motivational poster, or I'd sound like some too helpful person that needs to be smacked. Either way, I don't want to sound like that.

As to my hard drive, I lost a good deal amount of information. I had a few short stories that I wrote but never backed up, which I miss, I had a sample resume that I need for my next job, I had some flash software... but one of the worst lost that I had on it was the 15 gigs of AMV's. Ya, I know, they're just AMV's, but... I don't know. I want to say they cheer me up when I'm not feeling to happy, but there's more (and less) to that. I get to see other people's works, and I get to be exposed to new anime and new music. But there's also a community of people who make those things, and although I'm not actively making them, I'm at least a part of it when I download and write lengthy opinions about the videos.

Another reason why I'm unhappy is Gina said something to me last night. I'm not going to go into what she said, but it just upset me... still does. Anything in that category of comments makes me feel horrible, but I don't have the heart to tell her because I don't want her to feel bad, and I don't want to tell her which comment it was that made me feel the way I currently do because I don't want to lose her honesty with me. I value honesty, at least, I usually do. But still, it hurt...

Then there's the long ride with my parents to and from Virgina to see my cousin's wedding. I love my family, but I can only take them in limited doses. My Dad can just be a jerk. And of course, the only conversation my family had was about the station, and I hate that place. Hate hate hate hate hate! HATE! I'm forced to work there, I'm surrounded by people I dislike, management is a bunch of idiots, and... I don't know. There's more to that than that... but I'm getting off topic. The trip was not what I'd consider enjoyable. Espically because I couldn't get a decent amount of sleep (crappy hotel rooms and sleeping on a couch). Or because my Dad doesn't get along with his parents or his sister. But my uncle and his children are good people, so I wish them the best.

Right now I'm reinstalling EvE. I like EvE online, but I don't think it's because of the actual game play. I think it's because it makes a better glorified chat channel than CoH does, and because I enjoy crafting. I don't like PvP though, and that's a major side of the game, but... As to that, my corp is thinking about merging with another corp because no one is ever on in my corp. Now, I might be the one leading this idea, but I don't know if it'sgone through yet, due to the wedding =(. I just... want more people to talk to in that game, and in real life...

Speaking of that, I might have found a boyfriend. Might. Our first date is tomorrow, so hopefully he likes cuddling. We're going to meet up at the University Mall in Tampa, and from there we might try to find a quiet place elsewhere in Tampa for some talking and Cuddling. He's kind of cute, and he's heavily into anime =). Wish me luck!

Anyway. I think I've spent a little too much time rambling about different things, so I'm going to call it a night.