Monday, December 31, 2007
Last Post for 07
Well, this is my last post for 07... Not a lot really going on, just taking it easy for christmas break. So far, I only have 3 classes registered for =(.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Merry Christmass
Well, it's that time of year for me to wish everyone a merry christmass. I'll have that week off from work in Orlando, so I'll be able to enjoy a little bit of Christmass Vacation... err... ummm... winter break.
Well, I got my grades back for the semester. My C class I got an A, my stats class got a B-, Deferential Equations I got a C in, and in Physics III I got a C as well, which is better than I thought. After I took my DVQ exam, and my physics exam, I thought I horribly failed them both, and for about the week afterwards, I wasn't feeling too perky. What made things even worse was, after the DVQ exam, I grabbed Chinese food, and the fortune cookie I got said "My computer beats me at chess... until I pull the plug". That saying didn't make me feel better... I was orginally happy with the grades I got in those classes, but then I realized that, with more work, or with me actually able to pay attention in those classes, or a combination of the two, I would have easily surpassed those grades. And that revelation put me back down to where I was shortly after I took those tests. Still, at least I won't have to retake either of those courses. I will need to get a few A's in my engineering core courses though, so I can get my GPA in that sector above a 2.5.
Well, Gina's on Winter Break, so that's ok. I took her home from Melbourne, but the only thing she wanted to talk about on the way back was here sorority. It's not that that so much bothers me, but it's more that, there are things about her sorority she won't tell a non-member, and well, I just find it a little disconcerting that she has more of a connection to her sorority than to me, but that may just be selfishness.
My cell phone died yesterday =(. I ended up replacing it today with a different one, but I had to basically spend an entire paycheck to do so. I was planning on using that money to buy christmass presents and to pay down some of my credit card, but it doesn't look like that is going to happen =(. Hopefully I'll be able to use my other paycheck from the station to get what I need. I have 3 people left to buy for. Christine, I only have to pay for her gift, so that won't take too much time. It's my parents that I have no idea on what to do for.
My manager and I moved into a new office at work. I knew we'd be moving eventually, since he has been talking about moving, but I would have like to have spent a little bit more time organizing the move. Now, everything is in a hodgepod mess... though that isn't too much different than how we normally keep things.
I'm going to call it a night, I'm going to be taking my main machine with me when I go back home for christmass break, so hopefully I'll get another post or two before the end of the year. One of these days I'm going to go back and read through my own archives...
Well, I got my grades back for the semester. My C class I got an A, my stats class got a B-, Deferential Equations I got a C in, and in Physics III I got a C as well, which is better than I thought. After I took my DVQ exam, and my physics exam, I thought I horribly failed them both, and for about the week afterwards, I wasn't feeling too perky. What made things even worse was, after the DVQ exam, I grabbed Chinese food, and the fortune cookie I got said "My computer beats me at chess... until I pull the plug". That saying didn't make me feel better... I was orginally happy with the grades I got in those classes, but then I realized that, with more work, or with me actually able to pay attention in those classes, or a combination of the two, I would have easily surpassed those grades. And that revelation put me back down to where I was shortly after I took those tests. Still, at least I won't have to retake either of those courses. I will need to get a few A's in my engineering core courses though, so I can get my GPA in that sector above a 2.5.
Well, Gina's on Winter Break, so that's ok. I took her home from Melbourne, but the only thing she wanted to talk about on the way back was here sorority. It's not that that so much bothers me, but it's more that, there are things about her sorority she won't tell a non-member, and well, I just find it a little disconcerting that she has more of a connection to her sorority than to me, but that may just be selfishness.
My cell phone died yesterday =(. I ended up replacing it today with a different one, but I had to basically spend an entire paycheck to do so. I was planning on using that money to buy christmass presents and to pay down some of my credit card, but it doesn't look like that is going to happen =(. Hopefully I'll be able to use my other paycheck from the station to get what I need. I have 3 people left to buy for. Christine, I only have to pay for her gift, so that won't take too much time. It's my parents that I have no idea on what to do for.
My manager and I moved into a new office at work. I knew we'd be moving eventually, since he has been talking about moving, but I would have like to have spent a little bit more time organizing the move. Now, everything is in a hodgepod mess... though that isn't too much different than how we normally keep things.
I'm going to call it a night, I'm going to be taking my main machine with me when I go back home for christmass break, so hopefully I'll get another post or two before the end of the year. One of these days I'm going to go back and read through my own archives...
Monday, December 17, 2007
Soon...
Update coming when I get some free time... should be sometime this week.
And for EVE I only use the regular client, so my boot.ini file did not get deleted.
And for EVE I only use the regular client, so my boot.ini file did not get deleted.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Sunday is kind of like friday
Well... sorry about the lack of post on Friday. I was busy the whole day, well, outside of the sleeping part.
Having an actual day off, a day spent with friends and family and not either at work or at school, has made me feel a lot better. I have been having a lot of unhealthy, negative, and generally hurtful thoughts over the past month, which is one of the reasons why I haven't been posting regularly. Though getting more than 5 hours of sleep, being able to see friends, and going to a movie with my friends and my father on Friday has banished most of those thoughts.
There have been a few reasons why I've been having those thoughts recently. I'm not doing as well in my classes as I would have liked (I might end up retaking physics III), and feeling that, no matter what you do you're still getting a poor grade in the course and that your best effort is something that won't work for your major, is never good for moral. And I have at least 2 classes where I feel like this (though I think my grades are good enough in statistics and DVQ at the moment..)
Compund that with the fact I dislike both of my jobs... I've already ranted and raved enough about my station's job for anyone to know what I dislike about that job, but the other one I don't like either. I guess it might be because there is too much of that tedius office admin stuff about that job, or maybe it's the lack of coworkers. My other job, where I do the IT support, there's only myself and my manager, so no matter how well you get along with someone, certain mannerisms will eventually cause friction, and... I don't know. Like he has this way of going into in-depth life-story explanation whenever I bring up something non-computer related, and rather than give a straight or technical answer about something, he gives these overly lengthy speaches about the thing in question (like I asked him about about which graphics card I should upgrade to once, and he went into a 45 minute discussion on how graphics cards work). It's further compunded (ya, word of the day is compound...) by... I don't know... I mean, we get along well... maybe it's just the overly small office. He is a good guy, honest, hard working, loyal to those that are loyal to him, and very knowledgeable when it comes to computers, so I shouldn't have any qualms about him... but... I guess he's kind of like my dad... He's a good person and has numerous virtues, but I can only take him in small quantities...
Gina and I also haven't been getting along too well... well, it's less getting along and more of her being too busy to talk every time I call her. She's like the person I feel closest to, and I never get a chance to talk to her, so me slowly losing my friendship with her hurts... I just wish we could spend more time together... I miss being able to talk to her, and being able to do things at a moment's notice with her, and just all the stupid little things we did back at MCC, like hang out at Denny's until 3 am or have a 3 hour lunch at subway, or go shopping for clothes at the mall, or... I just miss doing all those little things with her, and I guess I feel more alone now with out someone to do that all with. I'm trying to develop a new friend's base up here, but...
Then there's EvE. I know I should probably quit it, but it's one of the few things I enjoy up here... it's like CoH, but more enjoyable, a stronger social group, more friends, and more of a sense of accomplisment. But I recently closed down the corp I've been running because of time constraints, and that kind of made me feel bad. I had spent a lot of time getting the corp up and active, invested a lot of energy into it, and to close it... I was CEO for about 6 months... that's kind of like having a job you enjoy, then out of the blue you quit. Or maybe it's like building a model of something, and right when you're about to put the last piece in place, after you spent all that energy building it, it shatters into a thousand pieces. Still... despite that, I'm in another corp, so I should be doing better...
Well... I need sleep for tomorrow, so I'm calling it a night... also, a certain someone needs to update their blog..
Having an actual day off, a day spent with friends and family and not either at work or at school, has made me feel a lot better. I have been having a lot of unhealthy, negative, and generally hurtful thoughts over the past month, which is one of the reasons why I haven't been posting regularly. Though getting more than 5 hours of sleep, being able to see friends, and going to a movie with my friends and my father on Friday has banished most of those thoughts.
There have been a few reasons why I've been having those thoughts recently. I'm not doing as well in my classes as I would have liked (I might end up retaking physics III), and feeling that, no matter what you do you're still getting a poor grade in the course and that your best effort is something that won't work for your major, is never good for moral. And I have at least 2 classes where I feel like this (though I think my grades are good enough in statistics and DVQ at the moment..)
Compund that with the fact I dislike both of my jobs... I've already ranted and raved enough about my station's job for anyone to know what I dislike about that job, but the other one I don't like either. I guess it might be because there is too much of that tedius office admin stuff about that job, or maybe it's the lack of coworkers. My other job, where I do the IT support, there's only myself and my manager, so no matter how well you get along with someone, certain mannerisms will eventually cause friction, and... I don't know. Like he has this way of going into in-depth life-story explanation whenever I bring up something non-computer related, and rather than give a straight or technical answer about something, he gives these overly lengthy speaches about the thing in question (like I asked him about about which graphics card I should upgrade to once, and he went into a 45 minute discussion on how graphics cards work). It's further compunded (ya, word of the day is compound...) by... I don't know... I mean, we get along well... maybe it's just the overly small office. He is a good guy, honest, hard working, loyal to those that are loyal to him, and very knowledgeable when it comes to computers, so I shouldn't have any qualms about him... but... I guess he's kind of like my dad... He's a good person and has numerous virtues, but I can only take him in small quantities...
Gina and I also haven't been getting along too well... well, it's less getting along and more of her being too busy to talk every time I call her. She's like the person I feel closest to, and I never get a chance to talk to her, so me slowly losing my friendship with her hurts... I just wish we could spend more time together... I miss being able to talk to her, and being able to do things at a moment's notice with her, and just all the stupid little things we did back at MCC, like hang out at Denny's until 3 am or have a 3 hour lunch at subway, or go shopping for clothes at the mall, or... I just miss doing all those little things with her, and I guess I feel more alone now with out someone to do that all with. I'm trying to develop a new friend's base up here, but...
Then there's EvE. I know I should probably quit it, but it's one of the few things I enjoy up here... it's like CoH, but more enjoyable, a stronger social group, more friends, and more of a sense of accomplisment. But I recently closed down the corp I've been running because of time constraints, and that kind of made me feel bad. I had spent a lot of time getting the corp up and active, invested a lot of energy into it, and to close it... I was CEO for about 6 months... that's kind of like having a job you enjoy, then out of the blue you quit. Or maybe it's like building a model of something, and right when you're about to put the last piece in place, after you spent all that energy building it, it shatters into a thousand pieces. Still... despite that, I'm in another corp, so I should be doing better...
Well... I need sleep for tomorrow, so I'm calling it a night... also, a certain someone needs to update their blog..
Monday, November 19, 2007
Post Coming Soon...
With finals coming soon, some shake ups in EvE, and my general self esteem at a low, I haven't had time to post =(. I should be posting soon though, probably the Friday after thanksgiving...
Friday, October 26, 2007
All Things Scary on All Hallow's EvE
Ya, another post, with out a two month delay. Hopefully I'll try to be a little less emo in this one then I was in the previous one...
Halloween's coming, and I really don't have anything to do for it. No clubs that I'm a part of our doing anything for Halloween =(, and and I currently lack the friend base to be able to throw/attend a Halloween party and enjoy it. Oh, and I also don't have a costume. Though, on the plus side, the local anime club s throwing a Halloween Murder Mystery thing on Sunday that I might attend. I'm not really a member of their club because their meetings are on Saturday nights, which is when I'm back at my parents to work =(. Though I do have an invite to it, since I am on the their facebook account, so if I leave early enough on Sunday from home after work, I'll be attending the Murder Mystery thing to give me something to do for Halloween. After all, Halloween is my favorite holiday of the year.
I'm doing a little bit better in my classes than I was in my last post, but not by much =(. I have a physics test come Wednesday that I'm not ready for. You know all that abstract atomic theory about the quantinization of matter and light? That's what it's going to be on. And the things I hate most about physics is atomic structure and nuclear physics =(. Though I'll probably be spending a good portion of my time studying over the weekend, minus that anime thing I want to do...
I have discovered that the greatest determent to my time at the moment is EvE. But, I really don't want to quit playing. It is my largest joy here in Orlando... well, may not my largest, but it is something I really enjoy doing. And it's not so much the space flight thingy (though I do love sci-fi) as it is a combination of having people to talk to (even if their only online) and being able to have more control over my character's outcomes than I do in the real world. Not that I don't control my real life, it's just that... I have a lot more freedom in EvE than I do in the real world. It is fairly easy to be something in EvE, not that it's difficult to do it in the RL, just... I don't know. I just enjoy it more I guess... And as such, I am really reluctant to part to part with it. Maybe I should, but...
There is a guy here I am interested in, but I don't think he's interested in me the same way I'm interested in him... at least, I don't think so. Still, he's interested in anime, gaming, and programming, so that should be a decent connection there. Though it might be more like he's free on the weekends, and I'm not =(. Stupid job with my parents. I did ask if he was free Wednesday night (you know, after my physics test), and he said it looked ok so far, but that he can't be certain till Tuesday, which doesn't sound too good to me =(. Still, hoprefully me and him can get together to watch some anime or something. And if that goes well, we might be able to meet up a little more often and become something more than friends. Hopefully... maybe...
Anyway, I have class soon, so I need to log and attend that. I'll try to post later in the week...
Halloween's coming, and I really don't have anything to do for it. No clubs that I'm a part of our doing anything for Halloween =(, and and I currently lack the friend base to be able to throw/attend a Halloween party and enjoy it. Oh, and I also don't have a costume. Though, on the plus side, the local anime club s throwing a Halloween Murder Mystery thing on Sunday that I might attend. I'm not really a member of their club because their meetings are on Saturday nights, which is when I'm back at my parents to work =(. Though I do have an invite to it, since I am on the their facebook account, so if I leave early enough on Sunday from home after work, I'll be attending the Murder Mystery thing to give me something to do for Halloween. After all, Halloween is my favorite holiday of the year.
I'm doing a little bit better in my classes than I was in my last post, but not by much =(. I have a physics test come Wednesday that I'm not ready for. You know all that abstract atomic theory about the quantinization of matter and light? That's what it's going to be on. And the things I hate most about physics is atomic structure and nuclear physics =(. Though I'll probably be spending a good portion of my time studying over the weekend, minus that anime thing I want to do...
I have discovered that the greatest determent to my time at the moment is EvE. But, I really don't want to quit playing. It is my largest joy here in Orlando... well, may not my largest, but it is something I really enjoy doing. And it's not so much the space flight thingy (though I do love sci-fi) as it is a combination of having people to talk to (even if their only online) and being able to have more control over my character's outcomes than I do in the real world. Not that I don't control my real life, it's just that... I have a lot more freedom in EvE than I do in the real world. It is fairly easy to be something in EvE, not that it's difficult to do it in the RL, just... I don't know. I just enjoy it more I guess... And as such, I am really reluctant to part to part with it. Maybe I should, but...
There is a guy here I am interested in, but I don't think he's interested in me the same way I'm interested in him... at least, I don't think so. Still, he's interested in anime, gaming, and programming, so that should be a decent connection there. Though it might be more like he's free on the weekends, and I'm not =(. Stupid job with my parents. I did ask if he was free Wednesday night (you know, after my physics test), and he said it looked ok so far, but that he can't be certain till Tuesday, which doesn't sound too good to me =(. Still, hoprefully me and him can get together to watch some anime or something. And if that goes well, we might be able to meet up a little more often and become something more than friends. Hopefully... maybe...
Anyway, I have class soon, so I need to log and attend that. I'll try to post later in the week...
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
OK, it might have been a while since I did an update
I've been very busy... class and work don't leave me a lot of free time to do other things, and most of the time that I had, I ended up spending on EvE, though I'm changing that.
It's not because I don't like EvE, far from it. In fact, right now, since I don't have a lot of friends here in Orlando, and my job with my Dad's friend has no coworkers (except my Dad's friend), EvE has basicly been my sole enjoyment here, which is kind of sad, since it seems I'm now using a virtual world to be happy...
But as to why I'm greatly decreasing the amount of free time I'm spending on EvE, it's because my grades aren't as good as I'd like them to be. I was one point from a C on my Diffrential Equations exam, and I did fairly horrible on my physics test (I only had answers for 3 out of 5 questions...). I'm also not keeping up with my homework, which is pretty bad considering the level of difficulty of the classes.
But the worst part isn't that. It's my attention span in my classes. I'll be attempting to pay attention in a class, and trying to focus on what the professor is saying, when my mind will go on a complete tangent and diverge in thought process to something completely random. And I'll do this multiple times in the lecture! So, by the end of the class I really didn't learn anything new. Though I wouldn't say I'm completely lost in my classes. I just... I don't know. And I think it's kind of depression related to why I can't seem to pay attention.
I mean, I don't really have anyone I consider to be a friend friend. I know a few people in my classes that I'm friendly with, and I enjoy hanging out with them, but our relationship pretty much ends with school. We'll occasionally hit an on-campus resturant after class, but as to us really going out of our way to do something, like hanging out in the evening or something, we don't. So, the only people I can really talk to after class gets out and I'm not at work are my corp mates on EvE, and I'll largely just talk to them because I don't have too many others to talk to.
As to Sean and I, well, I haven't talked to him in about a month and a half, so our relationship is pretty much over. And I know that he's at least OK enough to be able to log online, because his myspace page's last log in time keeps changing, so I think it's largely because he doesn't want to talk with me/be with me. I wouldn't feel as crappy about it if he gave me a reason why he didn't want to see me. Though either way, it still hurts. Even now.. when it first started, I wanted to find some way to make him feel the same way that he was making me feel. I didn't want to hurt him hurt him, because I still (even now) like him, I just wanted to make him know what that felt like, though I never enacted it. Of course, it's stupid of me to think that way. I mean, if he's out, and has found someone else that can make him happier than I could, than that would be ok I guess, I just wish I didn't feel like sobbing everytime I thought about this. And thinking about it makes me feel so... unwanted. And afraid of being single again... and a thousand other negative emotions that I don't like having. And to make things worse, when I think that maybe I shouldn't have ever dated him, my mind goes back and thinks about the times we cuddled (just cuddled!) and spent together, and I just want that back. I want to have someone I can embrace again, some one I can hug and hang onto, some one who, just... I don't know... obviously he wasn't it.
Gina's and I's relationship isn't going as well as I'd like it to be, though she's in Melborn and I'm in Orlando. She's attending FIT, though there she's gotten herself into a sorority. I don't mind that she has people to hang out with, and I'm happy and maybe a little jealous that she's made a lot of friends out there, but sometimes it just feels like she's putting a priority towards her sorority over me. Like, back when we were both going to MCC, I tried to get her to play Guitar Hero, since we both were in the orchestra and both enjoyed playing our respective instruments (I played the violin, she played the viola). She tried it out for one song, put it down, and said she didn't like it, so we never touched it again. But now that her sorority is doing an event with it, she's willing to engage in it with them... that's just one example... though I probably haven't been as good a friend to her as I should be. I really don't call her on a regular basis, so I guess it's acceptable that we're kind of drifting apart. It's just bad for me since she's one of the closest people I have in my life at the moment. And I don't want to loose my friendship with her.
Getting off of the topic on how I'm screwing up my personal life, if you haven't yet looked into it, go out and do what ever you can to watch as much Death Note as you can get your hands on. I've been able to see the first 9 episodes of it so far, and it is a fantastic anime. It is a very intense thriller, and when it finally finds it's way to the States (and I'm not talking about the dubbing crap they're going to put on Adult Swim, I'm talking about a good Sub), I'm going to be one of the first people to buy the series on DvD. I don't know what it is about the anime, I just can't get enough of it. Even though the plot synopsis doesn't sound too interesting (boy finds magic notebook that'll kill anyone who's name is written inside of it), it's worth the watch. And the own.
Anyway, I need to get some sleep for physics and work tomorrow. ~Night!
It's not because I don't like EvE, far from it. In fact, right now, since I don't have a lot of friends here in Orlando, and my job with my Dad's friend has no coworkers (except my Dad's friend), EvE has basicly been my sole enjoyment here, which is kind of sad, since it seems I'm now using a virtual world to be happy...
But as to why I'm greatly decreasing the amount of free time I'm spending on EvE, it's because my grades aren't as good as I'd like them to be. I was one point from a C on my Diffrential Equations exam, and I did fairly horrible on my physics test (I only had answers for 3 out of 5 questions...). I'm also not keeping up with my homework, which is pretty bad considering the level of difficulty of the classes.
But the worst part isn't that. It's my attention span in my classes. I'll be attempting to pay attention in a class, and trying to focus on what the professor is saying, when my mind will go on a complete tangent and diverge in thought process to something completely random. And I'll do this multiple times in the lecture! So, by the end of the class I really didn't learn anything new. Though I wouldn't say I'm completely lost in my classes. I just... I don't know. And I think it's kind of depression related to why I can't seem to pay attention.
I mean, I don't really have anyone I consider to be a friend friend. I know a few people in my classes that I'm friendly with, and I enjoy hanging out with them, but our relationship pretty much ends with school. We'll occasionally hit an on-campus resturant after class, but as to us really going out of our way to do something, like hanging out in the evening or something, we don't. So, the only people I can really talk to after class gets out and I'm not at work are my corp mates on EvE, and I'll largely just talk to them because I don't have too many others to talk to.
As to Sean and I, well, I haven't talked to him in about a month and a half, so our relationship is pretty much over. And I know that he's at least OK enough to be able to log online, because his myspace page's last log in time keeps changing, so I think it's largely because he doesn't want to talk with me/be with me. I wouldn't feel as crappy about it if he gave me a reason why he didn't want to see me. Though either way, it still hurts. Even now.. when it first started, I wanted to find some way to make him feel the same way that he was making me feel. I didn't want to hurt him hurt him, because I still (even now) like him, I just wanted to make him know what that felt like, though I never enacted it. Of course, it's stupid of me to think that way. I mean, if he's out, and has found someone else that can make him happier than I could, than that would be ok I guess, I just wish I didn't feel like sobbing everytime I thought about this. And thinking about it makes me feel so... unwanted. And afraid of being single again... and a thousand other negative emotions that I don't like having. And to make things worse, when I think that maybe I shouldn't have ever dated him, my mind goes back and thinks about the times we cuddled (just cuddled!) and spent together, and I just want that back. I want to have someone I can embrace again, some one I can hug and hang onto, some one who, just... I don't know... obviously he wasn't it.
Gina's and I's relationship isn't going as well as I'd like it to be, though she's in Melborn and I'm in Orlando. She's attending FIT, though there she's gotten herself into a sorority. I don't mind that she has people to hang out with, and I'm happy and maybe a little jealous that she's made a lot of friends out there, but sometimes it just feels like she's putting a priority towards her sorority over me. Like, back when we were both going to MCC, I tried to get her to play Guitar Hero, since we both were in the orchestra and both enjoyed playing our respective instruments (I played the violin, she played the viola). She tried it out for one song, put it down, and said she didn't like it, so we never touched it again. But now that her sorority is doing an event with it, she's willing to engage in it with them... that's just one example... though I probably haven't been as good a friend to her as I should be. I really don't call her on a regular basis, so I guess it's acceptable that we're kind of drifting apart. It's just bad for me since she's one of the closest people I have in my life at the moment. And I don't want to loose my friendship with her.
Getting off of the topic on how I'm screwing up my personal life, if you haven't yet looked into it, go out and do what ever you can to watch as much Death Note as you can get your hands on. I've been able to see the first 9 episodes of it so far, and it is a fantastic anime. It is a very intense thriller, and when it finally finds it's way to the States (and I'm not talking about the dubbing crap they're going to put on Adult Swim, I'm talking about a good Sub), I'm going to be one of the first people to buy the series on DvD. I don't know what it is about the anime, I just can't get enough of it. Even though the plot synopsis doesn't sound too interesting (boy finds magic notebook that'll kill anyone who's name is written inside of it), it's worth the watch. And the own.
Anyway, I need to get some sleep for physics and work tomorrow. ~Night!
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Better than expectations
So the job up here in Orlando was better than I predicted. It's not a bad job, and the distance isn't as far as I originally thought. It's only about thirty minutes from my dorm, or 14 miles. My manager is a decent, friendly, nice person (most of the time), and the work isn't that difficult, well, at least not for me. And the pay is a little better than the job I have with my parents. I mean, I feel ok about the job, and I'm kind of glad the manager isn't a bad person. It's also only 2 days a week, and the owner is always trying to figure out ways to write off lunch to the company account (yay! Free food for me). So I guess it's a pretty good job.
First day of school was Monday, and so far it's going pretty well. Though it's a 30 minute walk from my dorm to my class. That hasn't bothered me yet, though I think I need comfier sandals. It's gotten so hot on the pavement that it's melted the top part of my sandals, and it has completely ruined all comfiness.
What's bothered my so far though is the lack of friends I have up here. I've been trying to join a few clubs, but so far I haven't seen any of the meetings yet... and my room mate isn't too talkative of a person, so I don't get my socializing from them. To make things worse, I'm use to the close nit classes of a community college, where everyone in the class meets and talks to everyone else in the class, and by the end of the first week everyone knows everyone else's name. That's not how it is here. My smallest class has 50 students, while my C Programing class has 219 students. So I'll find someone to talk to one day, but the next day I won't be able to find them again due to the number of people in the class (well, Differential Equations, the 50 student class, doesn't count, but no one talks before or after the class... I think it's for antisocial people). So I've been feeling kind of lonely up here.
On top of that, I haven't been able to spend time with Sean at all =(. I've only been able to catch him online once or twice over the week, and we're trying to plan something on Friday so I can cuddle with him again, but I haven't heard back from him yet, and it's Thursday night. I like him a lot... I do. We share similar interests, and dating him means that at least I have someone... but that doesn't mean much when you never see each other. And before you ask, no, we haven't done anything more than cuddle, though that's largely due to the fact I haven't physically seen him enough to do more than that.
Anyway, I'm going to call it a night. I have class tomorrow morning... and I'm not feeling too uppity at the moment to continue typing.
First day of school was Monday, and so far it's going pretty well. Though it's a 30 minute walk from my dorm to my class. That hasn't bothered me yet, though I think I need comfier sandals. It's gotten so hot on the pavement that it's melted the top part of my sandals, and it has completely ruined all comfiness.
What's bothered my so far though is the lack of friends I have up here. I've been trying to join a few clubs, but so far I haven't seen any of the meetings yet... and my room mate isn't too talkative of a person, so I don't get my socializing from them. To make things worse, I'm use to the close nit classes of a community college, where everyone in the class meets and talks to everyone else in the class, and by the end of the first week everyone knows everyone else's name. That's not how it is here. My smallest class has 50 students, while my C Programing class has 219 students. So I'll find someone to talk to one day, but the next day I won't be able to find them again due to the number of people in the class (well, Differential Equations, the 50 student class, doesn't count, but no one talks before or after the class... I think it's for antisocial people). So I've been feeling kind of lonely up here.
On top of that, I haven't been able to spend time with Sean at all =(. I've only been able to catch him online once or twice over the week, and we're trying to plan something on Friday so I can cuddle with him again, but I haven't heard back from him yet, and it's Thursday night. I like him a lot... I do. We share similar interests, and dating him means that at least I have someone... but that doesn't mean much when you never see each other. And before you ask, no, we haven't done anything more than cuddle, though that's largely due to the fact I haven't physically seen him enough to do more than that.
Anyway, I'm going to call it a night. I have class tomorrow morning... and I'm not feeling too uppity at the moment to continue typing.
Monday, August 13, 2007
Lightining
Ok, first off sorry about the bland color scheme, I'm currently at home at the moment, writing this up on my mother's laptop, so I don't have the nifty link that displays all of my favorite hex color codes, so right now the color style is set to pink (I perfer to use fusia, since all you get under pink is buble gum pink, and I'm not too big of a fan of that color. I think it's a little too pink.) Also, my mom's laptop's keyboard is a lot less sensetive than my own computer's keyboard is, which means there will probably be mre stupid typos than there normaly are. Now, some of you might ask why I don't look up hex colors to get the color I want, or to proof read this when I finish, and the answer to that is, I'm lazy.
I really wish I could use my compute, but right now it's up in Orlando in my dorm, and I'm trapped here in Manatee county helping my parents with their station. I kind of don't want to be here, espically because everything I use for entrtainment is up in Orlando (TV, Computer, Anime, DS). I do have my 360, but with out a TV it's kind of useless. On the plus side I did get to spend a little bit of time with my friends, which was kind of cool. Except that Gina's grandfather just recently passes away, which is never a good thing. She kind of takes stress badly, and even though she was expecting him to pass away, she not coping too well about it. Part of it may be because he was e only father figure she had, and I'm sure there are oter reasons as well. I just wish there was something I could do for her, something to help her with this. I mean, it was bad when my Grandmother died, so I kind of know what she's going through, but on the other side of it, I don't, since I didn't live with my Grandmother. All I can really do to help Gina through this is to talk to her about all this, and to ty to chear her up through some of the non-sential jokes I make, but even then it just doesn't feel like enough, and I just... don't want her to feel bad.
As to work, well,over the last 3 days I've been there 30 hours,, which I guess isn't too bad. I mean, it could be more like 40 hours, which it pobably might have if I hadn't of taken prt of today of (I did beause we had three people on schedule, and the store can elly only use 2 people.)But what made the last coupl of days worse was the fact that yesterday (well, Saturday for all you people who believe tha midnight starts a new day) we got hit with lightning, which took our gas pumps down, along with our ablity to take credit and debit purchases, the car wash, and two of our neon lights. Since then, all we've managed to get fixed is the gas pumps. I just..... kind of.... feel powerless agains th. It's not the actual lighting that mkes me fel that way, or the fact that everything is "crispy". It's that, despite my technical knowledge, I can not repair it. And it's largely because I don't have the parts to do so. But it's also the technicians who come out and do the repair work. I just think they have a low opinion of the people who work at places like my place. Not that I don't are their opinion, but... I mean, there's really nothing I can do to assist them, and offering them help at best gives you a polite refusal. It's just that... and I know that my manager would probably not report any of the major issues to the repair companies. When gas and credit gets taken off line for a while, it's never good. And I don't think my manager would have called immediatly about it... I think he would have waited till Monday to do so, and even then, he probably would have waited till Monday evening. I mean, I've seen him not order important products for WEEKS because he just forgets about it or doesn't notice it, or.... I don't know. I know there are warranty issues and rebates worth thousands of dollars that he hasn't snt in, and he's had since the store opened to do it. But he's a good guy, just kind of out of it... and I don't like speaking ill of him, since I know he tries pretty hard at what he does. It's just... in the professional department, I don't have as much respect for him as I should for someone of his standing.
I have the job with my father's friend pretty muh lined up, all I need to do is call him tomorrow. I don't want to ork for him though, and it's for a mixture of reasons. It has nothing to do with him though, for so far he seems like a decent fellow. It's that his buisness is like 20 miles from my dorm, and I really don't want to travel that far just to go to work, espically when there are at least 2 bestbuys and a circuit city with in 5 miles of my dorm. The other reason why I don't want to work for him is that, with the exception of my time at Wyman, Green, & Blalock, I haven't been able to choose my employment. When I worked at Albertson's, I worked tere because my father thought it would be a good place for me to work. Now, I'm workig at the gas station because of him, and I'll be working for his friend because he thinks it'll be good. And it's not that I don't think it wil be, I mean, I'm probably going to learn more about programing, espcally for Databases and Scripting langauges, than I would have the opportunity to in any other place of employment currently available to me, except, maybe, a paid internship. And, that's not bad. It's just... I don't like being forced to work somewhere, because it kind of feels like slave labor. I'll get paid, but it's in the freedom to choose employment, and not just the pay, that I care about, of course, that might be because of my lack of big bills.
And then there's the "What if I screw something up... majorly" queston? I mean, this is one of my Dad's friends I'm working for, and if I screw up big time, it'll look really bad on his part. And even if I were to manage to somehow fix it, it's stll a strike against my family... at least in some big corporation one can screw something up, fix it, then leave for a new place. You can't fix a problem with friends that easily. And then there's also the fact that since I'm working for my dad's friend, it kind of feels like my Dad doubts my ability to get a job upon my own merits, and that, for some reason, he thinks I can't land my own job. And that's what I'm going to think about everytime I make the 20 mile comute.
Anyway, I need to get some sleep, I have to head back to Orlando tomorrow morning. So ~Night!
I really wish I could use my compute, but right now it's up in Orlando in my dorm, and I'm trapped here in Manatee county helping my parents with their station. I kind of don't want to be here, espically because everything I use for entrtainment is up in Orlando (TV, Computer, Anime, DS). I do have my 360, but with out a TV it's kind of useless. On the plus side I did get to spend a little bit of time with my friends, which was kind of cool. Except that Gina's grandfather just recently passes away, which is never a good thing. She kind of takes stress badly, and even though she was expecting him to pass away, she not coping too well about it. Part of it may be because he was e only father figure she had, and I'm sure there are oter reasons as well. I just wish there was something I could do for her, something to help her with this. I mean, it was bad when my Grandmother died, so I kind of know what she's going through, but on the other side of it, I don't, since I didn't live with my Grandmother. All I can really do to help Gina through this is to talk to her about all this, and to ty to chear her up through some of the non-sential jokes I make, but even then it just doesn't feel like enough, and I just... don't want her to feel bad.
As to work, well,over the last 3 days I've been there 30 hours,, which I guess isn't too bad. I mean, it could be more like 40 hours, which it pobably might have if I hadn't of taken prt of today of (I did beause we had three people on schedule, and the store can elly only use 2 people.)But what made the last coupl of days worse was the fact that yesterday (well, Saturday for all you people who believe tha midnight starts a new day) we got hit with lightning, which took our gas pumps down, along with our ablity to take credit and debit purchases, the car wash, and two of our neon lights. Since then, all we've managed to get fixed is the gas pumps. I just..... kind of.... feel powerless agains th. It's not the actual lighting that mkes me fel that way, or the fact that everything is "crispy". It's that, despite my technical knowledge, I can not repair it. And it's largely because I don't have the parts to do so. But it's also the technicians who come out and do the repair work. I just think they have a low opinion of the people who work at places like my place. Not that I don't are their opinion, but... I mean, there's really nothing I can do to assist them, and offering them help at best gives you a polite refusal. It's just that... and I know that my manager would probably not report any of the major issues to the repair companies. When gas and credit gets taken off line for a while, it's never good. And I don't think my manager would have called immediatly about it... I think he would have waited till Monday to do so, and even then, he probably would have waited till Monday evening. I mean, I've seen him not order important products for WEEKS because he just forgets about it or doesn't notice it, or.... I don't know. I know there are warranty issues and rebates worth thousands of dollars that he hasn't snt in, and he's had since the store opened to do it. But he's a good guy, just kind of out of it... and I don't like speaking ill of him, since I know he tries pretty hard at what he does. It's just... in the professional department, I don't have as much respect for him as I should for someone of his standing.
I have the job with my father's friend pretty muh lined up, all I need to do is call him tomorrow. I don't want to ork for him though, and it's for a mixture of reasons. It has nothing to do with him though, for so far he seems like a decent fellow. It's that his buisness is like 20 miles from my dorm, and I really don't want to travel that far just to go to work, espically when there are at least 2 bestbuys and a circuit city with in 5 miles of my dorm. The other reason why I don't want to work for him is that, with the exception of my time at Wyman, Green, & Blalock, I haven't been able to choose my employment. When I worked at Albertson's, I worked tere because my father thought it would be a good place for me to work. Now, I'm workig at the gas station because of him, and I'll be working for his friend because he thinks it'll be good. And it's not that I don't think it wil be, I mean, I'm probably going to learn more about programing, espcally for Databases and Scripting langauges, than I would have the opportunity to in any other place of employment currently available to me, except, maybe, a paid internship. And, that's not bad. It's just... I don't like being forced to work somewhere, because it kind of feels like slave labor. I'll get paid, but it's in the freedom to choose employment, and not just the pay, that I care about, of course, that might be because of my lack of big bills.
And then there's the "What if I screw something up... majorly" queston? I mean, this is one of my Dad's friends I'm working for, and if I screw up big time, it'll look really bad on his part. And even if I were to manage to somehow fix it, it's stll a strike against my family... at least in some big corporation one can screw something up, fix it, then leave for a new place. You can't fix a problem with friends that easily. And then there's also the fact that since I'm working for my dad's friend, it kind of feels like my Dad doubts my ability to get a job upon my own merits, and that, for some reason, he thinks I can't land my own job. And that's what I'm going to think about everytime I make the 20 mile comute.
Anyway, I need to get some sleep, I have to head back to Orlando tomorrow morning. So ~Night!
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
To Orlando!
Well, I'm now in Orlando. The move went fairly smooth, with nothing bad happening. Got almost everything up here that I need (I still need to bring one or two things when I go back home.) I'll be heading back on home Thursday night though, since I'm still working for my parents on the weekends (once school is in session, I'll be traveling home Friday nights and returning Sunday evenings.)
My room mate is pretty cool... at least, my room mate is a fairly laid back person. So far, all they've really done is watched TV. I'm not too big of a TV fan myself though, so I haven't been spending too much time with them.
On one hand I'm kind of happy that my room mate is the indifferent type, because that means I don't have to worry about too many people coming in and out of our room at all hours of the day. Neither of us has had any one over in the dorm room yet, though my sisters are stopping by tonight. Also, since they're pretty indifferent, I don't need to worry too much about my habits offending them, and that's always a good thing, espically since this is the first time I've shared living space with another person (I've always had my own room back home.)
On the other hand though, my room mate and I don't have a lot in common, which is probably a bad thing. They're not into gaming, or anime, or some of the other geeky, nerdy stuff I've found enjoyable. In fact, their PC is worse than mine, it's a small machine still running Windows 98. So my room mate isn't much of a Technophile. On the plus side though, my room mate does seem honest, so I can't fault that.
I've also been kind of homesick since I've arrived here, and today is only the second day I've been up here (I moved in on Tuesday). I kind of miss the familiar surroundings of home, and although I've written on numerous occasions, I kind of miss my family (ya, I know, I complain about them a lot.) I also miss my friends. I've already called a few of them up multiple times today, since I know they all had today off. I don't want to use up what little cell phone minutes I have though, so I'm waiting till 8 to call them again.
I also miss my boyfriend... =(. I didn't get to see him last week, so it's been like, 3 or 4 weeks since I last saw him, and he's having computer problems at the moment =(. Sometimes I think he isn't as into me as I am into him, but he does email me from a friend's computer every one or two days, so that kind of makes up for it. Unless it's all a ruse, but he hasn't been on some of our mutual sites for a little over a week, so that means either his computer is broken, or he's avoiding the sites I know he visits. I'm hoping it's the former...
I had to do some repair work on my computer before I could get internet access on it. My computer's hard drive crashed about one or two months ago, and I had to replace it. When I replaced it, rather than assigning the drive to C: like most computers do, for some reason it assigned it to I: . Now, that's not bad in itself, but I had to download the ethernet drivers for my PC yesterday using a public machine. I go to install them, and I get a fatal error. Apparently, the default HP ethernet drivers only install to C:. So ya, I had to pick up a new ethernet card to get internet working again. Before this, I always used a USB wireless adapter... no such luck here I guess.
Anyway, I need to log... so ~Night!
My room mate is pretty cool... at least, my room mate is a fairly laid back person. So far, all they've really done is watched TV. I'm not too big of a TV fan myself though, so I haven't been spending too much time with them.
On one hand I'm kind of happy that my room mate is the indifferent type, because that means I don't have to worry about too many people coming in and out of our room at all hours of the day. Neither of us has had any one over in the dorm room yet, though my sisters are stopping by tonight. Also, since they're pretty indifferent, I don't need to worry too much about my habits offending them, and that's always a good thing, espically since this is the first time I've shared living space with another person (I've always had my own room back home.)
On the other hand though, my room mate and I don't have a lot in common, which is probably a bad thing. They're not into gaming, or anime, or some of the other geeky, nerdy stuff I've found enjoyable. In fact, their PC is worse than mine, it's a small machine still running Windows 98. So my room mate isn't much of a Technophile. On the plus side though, my room mate does seem honest, so I can't fault that.
I've also been kind of homesick since I've arrived here, and today is only the second day I've been up here (I moved in on Tuesday). I kind of miss the familiar surroundings of home, and although I've written on numerous occasions, I kind of miss my family (ya, I know, I complain about them a lot.) I also miss my friends. I've already called a few of them up multiple times today, since I know they all had today off. I don't want to use up what little cell phone minutes I have though, so I'm waiting till 8 to call them again.
I also miss my boyfriend... =(. I didn't get to see him last week, so it's been like, 3 or 4 weeks since I last saw him, and he's having computer problems at the moment =(. Sometimes I think he isn't as into me as I am into him, but he does email me from a friend's computer every one or two days, so that kind of makes up for it. Unless it's all a ruse, but he hasn't been on some of our mutual sites for a little over a week, so that means either his computer is broken, or he's avoiding the sites I know he visits. I'm hoping it's the former...
I had to do some repair work on my computer before I could get internet access on it. My computer's hard drive crashed about one or two months ago, and I had to replace it. When I replaced it, rather than assigning the drive to C: like most computers do, for some reason it assigned it to I: . Now, that's not bad in itself, but I had to download the ethernet drivers for my PC yesterday using a public machine. I go to install them, and I get a fatal error. Apparently, the default HP ethernet drivers only install to C:. So ya, I had to pick up a new ethernet card to get internet working again. Before this, I always used a USB wireless adapter... no such luck here I guess.
Anyway, I need to log... so ~Night!
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Glargh, Bimonthly
I don't want this to become a bi-monthly post, but with the way things are going it looks like that's how my blog is going to end up. I kind of wanted it to be, at worst, a weekly post, but I guess a combination of work, EvE, and my friends, have conspisired to prevent me from being able to post as often as I'd wish... or maybe it's just that I'm lazy or weary after work and don't really wish to explain everything at 2 or 3 in the morning. Either way, I'm hoping that, when I leave for school, I'll be able to get this blog back up to a weekly post.
Speaking of that, my housing contract starts on the 7th of August, which means I'm going to be busy packing stuff up. Then there will be a long car ride to Orlando with other family members, and hopefully I'll be able to unpack everything and have a nice room mate. I hope my room mate is nice, and has a similar personality to mine. I mean, I don't want a room mate I don't get along with, and even though I like my privacy, I also don't want a room mate who's never there. I want one who's there, who's fun to be with, and has a similar personality to mine. What I don't want is one of those room mates only interested in partying and drinking.
I probably should have mentioned this earlier, but Will was down for about 2 weeks. He's already left again. I didn't spend much time with him, since I was working and his family wanted to spend time with him again. It was nice to see him again, espically since I won't be able to see him again till the middle of next year, but, I don't know. It's just, every day it seems he gets a little more nerdy, and I get a little less nerdy. The things we enjoyed back in Highschool, IE, things like DnD and some video games, I enjoy less, while he's getting more into comic books and roleplaying. I don't know... I guess we don't have similar interests anymore.
As to my boyfriend and I, well, first off, all we've done is cuddled. We haven't done anything more than that, so you can get you mind out of the gutter. Of course, the reason why might be because we've only been able to cuddle in the back of my car, and not someplace a little more private, but we still haven't done any unspeakable acts yet! Actually, he went up to Maryland for a week for Otakon, and he just got back down. I'm hoping to meet up with him on Wednesday to spend some more time with him. I do really miss him. He's just been busy since he's gotten back, and that hasn't been good for me =(.
Anyway, I need to get ready for work... I'll try posting again before the end of the month, but I doubt I'll be able to.
Speaking of that, my housing contract starts on the 7th of August, which means I'm going to be busy packing stuff up. Then there will be a long car ride to Orlando with other family members, and hopefully I'll be able to unpack everything and have a nice room mate. I hope my room mate is nice, and has a similar personality to mine. I mean, I don't want a room mate I don't get along with, and even though I like my privacy, I also don't want a room mate who's never there. I want one who's there, who's fun to be with, and has a similar personality to mine. What I don't want is one of those room mates only interested in partying and drinking.
I probably should have mentioned this earlier, but Will was down for about 2 weeks. He's already left again. I didn't spend much time with him, since I was working and his family wanted to spend time with him again. It was nice to see him again, espically since I won't be able to see him again till the middle of next year, but, I don't know. It's just, every day it seems he gets a little more nerdy, and I get a little less nerdy. The things we enjoyed back in Highschool, IE, things like DnD and some video games, I enjoy less, while he's getting more into comic books and roleplaying. I don't know... I guess we don't have similar interests anymore.
As to my boyfriend and I, well, first off, all we've done is cuddled. We haven't done anything more than that, so you can get you mind out of the gutter. Of course, the reason why might be because we've only been able to cuddle in the back of my car, and not someplace a little more private, but we still haven't done any unspeakable acts yet! Actually, he went up to Maryland for a week for Otakon, and he just got back down. I'm hoping to meet up with him on Wednesday to spend some more time with him. I do really miss him. He's just been busy since he's gotten back, and that hasn't been good for me =(.
Anyway, I need to get ready for work... I'll try posting again before the end of the month, but I doubt I'll be able to.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
I've been lazy
I've been lazy, and I haven't posted in about a month. Not that there has been much for me to post about. For the last month or two, my life has basically consisted of three things: working, hanging out with friends at a diner, or playing EvE. Not that I mind those three things, but...
Well, those three things aren't the only things I've been up to really... I did go to my cousin's wedding about a month ago. The wedding itself was nice. It was all out doors in a beautiful location. The thing that I didn't like about everything though was my family. I really can only take them in small doses most of the time, and spending about 8 days with them is a little bit more than a small dose. It's not that I don't love them, but.... just something about them, espically my father, gets on my nerves. I'm not that only one in my family with the issue though. In the car wide up there, a few comments my dad made to Catherine made her burst into tears, and he's not on speaking terms with his parents. They each have their own problems with each other though, so that more of a mutual thing. We actually almost left the day before the ceremony because of an argument my father had with his brother and his parents... just realized that I already posted about the wedding, and that this post now seems a bit redundant...
I did go to metrocon on Saturday. The con itself would have been insanely fun... had I someone to go with. Instead, I ended up going by myself, because Gina had a wedding to go to, and Aaron had to work. I don't know if Aaron tried to get the con day off, I don't think he did, so I'm kind of upset with him at leaving me alone at the con, but I don't have any issue with Gina at the moment. Actually, out of all my friends, I probably trust her the most with information about myself and being honest to me and being there when I need her. But... the con.... I ended up annoying the people at the art booths because I didn't have anyone to do anything with. I would talk to a few people who passed me by, but I didn't really find any group of people to converse with at the con. I started to feel really lonely at the con around 2ish, and left at 3. I'm also kind of upset that my boyfriend wasn't able to go with me either... but he's going to Otakon and is taking 10 days off for that, so I doubt his work would have given him the time off. I'm also kind of angry with myself for not having more people to go to these things with. But that's just me...
As to my Boyfriend and I, I just wish I could spend more time with him than once a week. He lives in Wesley Chapel, I live in manatee county, so we end up meeting halfway in Tampa... which is 35 miles away =(. I just think about him a lot, and wish I could spend more time with him. And then he's going to otakon I think next week, so I won't be able to see him for a week =(. I just like being held by him, or holding him, or nibbling on his ear... =P. We found a hospital parking lot in Tampa that we like to cuddle in, since it's open 24/7, is safe, and has no security... unlike the malls in tampa, which aren't safe and have annoying security guards getting angry at you for taking up a parking space for 3 hours... it's our fault we don't have anywhere else to cuddle =(.
Anyway, I need to log for work, and with me not having written a blog post for a month, this all seems too choppy and difficult to read. So I'm going to log... ~Night!
Well, those three things aren't the only things I've been up to really... I did go to my cousin's wedding about a month ago. The wedding itself was nice. It was all out doors in a beautiful location. The thing that I didn't like about everything though was my family. I really can only take them in small doses most of the time, and spending about 8 days with them is a little bit more than a small dose. It's not that I don't love them, but.... just something about them, espically my father, gets on my nerves. I'm not that only one in my family with the issue though. In the car wide up there, a few comments my dad made to Catherine made her burst into tears, and he's not on speaking terms with his parents. They each have their own problems with each other though, so that more of a mutual thing. We actually almost left the day before the ceremony because of an argument my father had with his brother and his parents... just realized that I already posted about the wedding, and that this post now seems a bit redundant...
I did go to metrocon on Saturday. The con itself would have been insanely fun... had I someone to go with. Instead, I ended up going by myself, because Gina had a wedding to go to, and Aaron had to work. I don't know if Aaron tried to get the con day off, I don't think he did, so I'm kind of upset with him at leaving me alone at the con, but I don't have any issue with Gina at the moment. Actually, out of all my friends, I probably trust her the most with information about myself and being honest to me and being there when I need her. But... the con.... I ended up annoying the people at the art booths because I didn't have anyone to do anything with. I would talk to a few people who passed me by, but I didn't really find any group of people to converse with at the con. I started to feel really lonely at the con around 2ish, and left at 3. I'm also kind of upset that my boyfriend wasn't able to go with me either... but he's going to Otakon and is taking 10 days off for that, so I doubt his work would have given him the time off. I'm also kind of angry with myself for not having more people to go to these things with. But that's just me...
As to my Boyfriend and I, I just wish I could spend more time with him than once a week. He lives in Wesley Chapel, I live in manatee county, so we end up meeting halfway in Tampa... which is 35 miles away =(. I just think about him a lot, and wish I could spend more time with him. And then he's going to otakon I think next week, so I won't be able to see him for a week =(. I just like being held by him, or holding him, or nibbling on his ear... =P. We found a hospital parking lot in Tampa that we like to cuddle in, since it's open 24/7, is safe, and has no security... unlike the malls in tampa, which aren't safe and have annoying security guards getting angry at you for taking up a parking space for 3 hours... it's our fault we don't have anywhere else to cuddle =(.
Anyway, I need to log for work, and with me not having written a blog post for a month, this all seems too choppy and difficult to read. So I'm going to log... ~Night!
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Crash and Burn
I'm not in a good mood at the moment =(, and there's a lot of reasons for that. The number one reason is that my Hard Drive crashed. Which meant I ended up spending three hundred dollars to replace both the drive and the OS. The reason why I needed to replace the OS was that HP is cheap, and instead of sending me an OS disc with the PC, they instead put the OS files on a separate partition on the drive.
I have other things too that I kind of want to complain about, but I do currently have it better than one of my friends, at least, according to his blog.I have a job (although not the one I would like to have), and I have been accepted at the University of Central Florida, so I am doing pretty well in the whole skeem of things. But still, I have reasons, some of which I haven't posted here. Still, I wish i could make him feel better... I'd post a comment, but I don't think I could offer anything useful. Instead, I'd either sound like some sort of cheap, motivational poster, or I'd sound like some too helpful person that needs to be smacked. Either way, I don't want to sound like that.
As to my hard drive, I lost a good deal amount of information. I had a few short stories that I wrote but never backed up, which I miss, I had a sample resume that I need for my next job, I had some flash software... but one of the worst lost that I had on it was the 15 gigs of AMV's. Ya, I know, they're just AMV's, but... I don't know. I want to say they cheer me up when I'm not feeling to happy, but there's more (and less) to that. I get to see other people's works, and I get to be exposed to new anime and new music. But there's also a community of people who make those things, and although I'm not actively making them, I'm at least a part of it when I download and write lengthy opinions about the videos.
Another reason why I'm unhappy is Gina said something to me last night. I'm not going to go into what she said, but it just upset me... still does. Anything in that category of comments makes me feel horrible, but I don't have the heart to tell her because I don't want her to feel bad, and I don't want to tell her which comment it was that made me feel the way I currently do because I don't want to lose her honesty with me. I value honesty, at least, I usually do. But still, it hurt...
Then there's the long ride with my parents to and from Virgina to see my cousin's wedding. I love my family, but I can only take them in limited doses. My Dad can just be a jerk. And of course, the only conversation my family had was about the station, and I hate that place. Hate hate hate hate hate! HATE! I'm forced to work there, I'm surrounded by people I dislike, management is a bunch of idiots, and... I don't know. There's more to that than that... but I'm getting off topic. The trip was not what I'd consider enjoyable. Espically because I couldn't get a decent amount of sleep (crappy hotel rooms and sleeping on a couch). Or because my Dad doesn't get along with his parents or his sister. But my uncle and his children are good people, so I wish them the best.
Right now I'm reinstalling EvE. I like EvE online, but I don't think it's because of the actual game play. I think it's because it makes a better glorified chat channel than CoH does, and because I enjoy crafting. I don't like PvP though, and that's a major side of the game, but... As to that, my corp is thinking about merging with another corp because no one is ever on in my corp. Now, I might be the one leading this idea, but I don't know if it'sgone through yet, due to the wedding =(. I just... want more people to talk to in that game, and in real life...
Speaking of that, I might have found a boyfriend. Might. Our first date is tomorrow, so hopefully he likes cuddling. We're going to meet up at the University Mall in Tampa, and from there we might try to find a quiet place elsewhere in Tampa for some talking and Cuddling. He's kind of cute, and he's heavily into anime =). Wish me luck!
Anyway. I think I've spent a little too much time rambling about different things, so I'm going to call it a night.
I have other things too that I kind of want to complain about, but I do currently have it better than one of my friends, at least, according to his blog.I have a job (although not the one I would like to have), and I have been accepted at the University of Central Florida, so I am doing pretty well in the whole skeem of things. But still, I have reasons, some of which I haven't posted here. Still, I wish i could make him feel better... I'd post a comment, but I don't think I could offer anything useful. Instead, I'd either sound like some sort of cheap, motivational poster, or I'd sound like some too helpful person that needs to be smacked. Either way, I don't want to sound like that.
As to my hard drive, I lost a good deal amount of information. I had a few short stories that I wrote but never backed up, which I miss, I had a sample resume that I need for my next job, I had some flash software... but one of the worst lost that I had on it was the 15 gigs of AMV's. Ya, I know, they're just AMV's, but... I don't know. I want to say they cheer me up when I'm not feeling to happy, but there's more (and less) to that. I get to see other people's works, and I get to be exposed to new anime and new music. But there's also a community of people who make those things, and although I'm not actively making them, I'm at least a part of it when I download and write lengthy opinions about the videos.
Another reason why I'm unhappy is Gina said something to me last night. I'm not going to go into what she said, but it just upset me... still does. Anything in that category of comments makes me feel horrible, but I don't have the heart to tell her because I don't want her to feel bad, and I don't want to tell her which comment it was that made me feel the way I currently do because I don't want to lose her honesty with me. I value honesty, at least, I usually do. But still, it hurt...
Then there's the long ride with my parents to and from Virgina to see my cousin's wedding. I love my family, but I can only take them in limited doses. My Dad can just be a jerk. And of course, the only conversation my family had was about the station, and I hate that place. Hate hate hate hate hate! HATE! I'm forced to work there, I'm surrounded by people I dislike, management is a bunch of idiots, and... I don't know. There's more to that than that... but I'm getting off topic. The trip was not what I'd consider enjoyable. Espically because I couldn't get a decent amount of sleep (crappy hotel rooms and sleeping on a couch). Or because my Dad doesn't get along with his parents or his sister. But my uncle and his children are good people, so I wish them the best.
Right now I'm reinstalling EvE. I like EvE online, but I don't think it's because of the actual game play. I think it's because it makes a better glorified chat channel than CoH does, and because I enjoy crafting. I don't like PvP though, and that's a major side of the game, but... As to that, my corp is thinking about merging with another corp because no one is ever on in my corp. Now, I might be the one leading this idea, but I don't know if it'sgone through yet, due to the wedding =(. I just... want more people to talk to in that game, and in real life...
Speaking of that, I might have found a boyfriend. Might. Our first date is tomorrow, so hopefully he likes cuddling. We're going to meet up at the University Mall in Tampa, and from there we might try to find a quiet place elsewhere in Tampa for some talking and Cuddling. He's kind of cute, and he's heavily into anime =). Wish me luck!
Anyway. I think I've spent a little too much time rambling about different things, so I'm going to call it a night.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Busy! Busy! Busy!
OK, I apologize for the lack of color, shortness, and other problems (ie, delay since last post) this post has. No, I have not fallen off of the face of the earth. I've been somewhat busy... I've been working over time at the station, been trying to spend some time with friends, had Orientation to go to for UCF, and I met a friend from one of the forums I visted. So ya... I've been a wee bit busy.
As to my classes, they are Diffrential Equations, Statistics for Engineers, Physics 3, and C programming.
Also Been Busy trying to find housing and finacial Aid. My classes start August 20th, and the housing I found requires me to move in August 7th. Hopefully I'll be ready by then...
Also, I'm not going to A-kon with Will due to time and finaces... =(.
As to my classes, they are Diffrential Equations, Statistics for Engineers, Physics 3, and C programming.
Also Been Busy trying to find housing and finacial Aid. My classes start August 20th, and the housing I found requires me to move in August 7th. Hopefully I'll be ready by then...
Also, I'm not going to A-kon with Will due to time and finaces... =(.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
First Post of May
OK, maybe I didn't get to meet my goal of four posts last month, but I should be able to do it this month...
One of the reasons why I wasn't able to was because of a combination of work and finals. Over the weekend before finals I worked something like 30 hours... so I didn't have too much free time =(. I also didn't have too much (err... not at all) study time. So you can imagine how I did on my physics and chemistry exams (I know I got a B overall in Physics... I'm just afraid of chemistry now... History I had a 105% for my final grade...).
It doesn't help that Regina was having a nevouress breakdown because of her Physics final either... she did really bad on the test (worse than I did), so that night I had to keep her away from sharp objects. She's doing a lot better today, but... =(.
I'm kind of angry at Aaron... apparnetly he met someone back at Megacon, and didn't tell me about her. The only reason why I found out about their relationship was because she called him to break up with him while we were out together. I'm somewhat upset that she broke up with him, but I'm even more upset about the fact that he didn't tell me about their relationship
It's been a few days since the top part of this post, and in that time I went to Jacon... and dyed my hair a color similar to the line above... Glarg... I'll just give Jacon it's own post... still too sleepy
One of the reasons why I wasn't able to was because of a combination of work and finals. Over the weekend before finals I worked something like 30 hours... so I didn't have too much free time =(. I also didn't have too much (err... not at all) study time. So you can imagine how I did on my physics and chemistry exams (I know I got a B overall in Physics... I'm just afraid of chemistry now... History I had a 105% for my final grade...).
It doesn't help that Regina was having a nevouress breakdown because of her Physics final either... she did really bad on the test (worse than I did), so that night I had to keep her away from sharp objects. She's doing a lot better today, but... =(.
I'm kind of angry at Aaron... apparnetly he met someone back at Megacon, and didn't tell me about her. The only reason why I found out about their relationship was because she called him to break up with him while we were out together. I'm somewhat upset that she broke up with him, but I'm even more upset about the fact that he didn't tell me about their relationship
It's been a few days since the top part of this post, and in that time I went to Jacon... and dyed my hair a color similar to the line above... Glarg... I'll just give Jacon it's own post... still too sleepy
Thursday, April 26, 2007
A before work post
Blogging before work... after this one I'm going to try to post one more post before the end of April. I can then at least pretend I'm back to one post every week...
I finally got my mirror repaired on my truck. The guy's insurance company paid for everything, so I didn't have to do any out of pocket expense, which is a good thing =). I also didn't get pulled over for having a broken mirror, which is also good.
Finals are next week for me. I'm not too worried about them, well, if I actually study for them I won't be too worried. Right now though I know there are a few things on my physics and chemistry exams that I'll need to go over, and I might not have a chance to do that this week end due to work... ya I'm picking up more hours at the station =(.
The reason for that isn't because I'm getting out of school soon (though that's what my family probably thinks.) The reason is that Will has invited me to go to A-Con with him in the first of June, and if I'm going to go, I'll need to get airplane tickets. He'll probably make the hotel reservations, so I won't need to worry about getting that money before the middle of May, but I will need to worry about getting the air fare and the money for a weekend pass to the convention before the middle of May.
I know it's probably a bad time for me to go to a convention, but it's not about the convention. It's about seeing him again before he gets deployed back into Iraq. June is probably the last month I'll have the time to go visit him, since I'll probably be moving in July, getting seatlled in August, and from September till Christmass I'll probably be at UCF, to engrossed in my studies to be able to take 2 or three days off (and not to mention the living expensies.) I want to see him badly, and since he'll be doing a fifthteen month tour in Iraq, I don't want to wait two years to see him again. Of course, I could always bombard him with emails, but that's not nearly as good as seeing him again.
Anyway, I need to log for work. I'll try to do one more post before the end of the month (one with in 4 days?!). ~Night!
Edit: Forgot to post this before work =(
I finally got my mirror repaired on my truck. The guy's insurance company paid for everything, so I didn't have to do any out of pocket expense, which is a good thing =). I also didn't get pulled over for having a broken mirror, which is also good.
Finals are next week for me. I'm not too worried about them, well, if I actually study for them I won't be too worried. Right now though I know there are a few things on my physics and chemistry exams that I'll need to go over, and I might not have a chance to do that this week end due to work... ya I'm picking up more hours at the station =(.
The reason for that isn't because I'm getting out of school soon (though that's what my family probably thinks.) The reason is that Will has invited me to go to A-Con with him in the first of June, and if I'm going to go, I'll need to get airplane tickets. He'll probably make the hotel reservations, so I won't need to worry about getting that money before the middle of May, but I will need to worry about getting the air fare and the money for a weekend pass to the convention before the middle of May.
I know it's probably a bad time for me to go to a convention, but it's not about the convention. It's about seeing him again before he gets deployed back into Iraq. June is probably the last month I'll have the time to go visit him, since I'll probably be moving in July, getting seatlled in August, and from September till Christmass I'll probably be at UCF, to engrossed in my studies to be able to take 2 or three days off (and not to mention the living expensies.) I want to see him badly, and since he'll be doing a fifthteen month tour in Iraq, I don't want to wait two years to see him again. Of course, I could always bombard him with emails, but that's not nearly as good as seeing him again.
Anyway, I need to log for work. I'll try to do one more post before the end of the month (one with in 4 days?!). ~Night!
Edit: Forgot to post this before work =(
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Loveless
Well, I'm now 21, and I still haven't used any of the new, 21+ privalages that comes with being 21. Out of my friends, only Will hasn't turned 21 yet, so I'm not the youngest in my group of friends =).
I've been watching the anime Loveless, and it's a very well done anime. Excellent artwork, good music, plot, and character devolpment. My complaint about it is that it's only 12 episodes long, and I'm currently on episode 11. Of course, the manga is still going (currently to volume 4 in the US, something like 7 in Japan), so I've picked up the first volume.
I apologize if this entry seems a little choppy, I've been reading a new webcomic that a friend showed me. The web comic falls under the same category as some of the anime I've been watching, so, some of it is.... ummm.... kind of... I don't want to say wrong or distrubing because of their conotation, but... ya... the webcomic Pandect could be considered those two things. On the plus side, the number of webcomics I have bookmarked has now risen to 14 =). Just wish I could find a good one that updates on Wednessdays.
It's a few days after I started this post, and I have just finished Loveless about ten minutes ago (wish I could finish a book I feel I need to read as fast as I could finish anime). The last episode was good! Very good! But it wasn't an ending!!!!!!!!!!!!! It just... and.... glarg!!! The anime ends with a cliff hanger! Ok... I need to stop complaining about the ending. Hopefully the manga will have a better ending. At least I'll be able to watch all those Loveless AMVs that I downloaded with out fear of spoilers.
I've been playing puzzlequest while I haven't been playing Eve. The reason is that you need a little bit more innutive and a little bit more motivation in Eve then in any other game I've ever played, and I haven't had it. Instead, I've been doing a few things that are less... involved. As you can tell, that's things like anime, AMVs, and games with set objectives. I also haven't been able to progress too far with my studies... =(. I'll go to study, pull out my books, paper, and pencil, and I'll just sit there for fifthteen minutes just staring at the closed text book, not being able to bring out enough energy to open it and study. Unless the assignment is due the next day, in which case I'll finish the assignment at 3 or 4 am (not being able to start it till about midnight) and spend the rest of the night staring at my ceiling while I wait for sleep to over take me. It's starting to feel like high school again, and that was probably the worse time of my life.
Anyway, I'm going to get some sleep real quick. hopefully I'll post by next Wednessday... ~Night!
I've been watching the anime Loveless, and it's a very well done anime. Excellent artwork, good music, plot, and character devolpment. My complaint about it is that it's only 12 episodes long, and I'm currently on episode 11. Of course, the manga is still going (currently to volume 4 in the US, something like 7 in Japan), so I've picked up the first volume.
I apologize if this entry seems a little choppy, I've been reading a new webcomic that a friend showed me. The web comic falls under the same category as some of the anime I've been watching, so, some of it is.... ummm.... kind of... I don't want to say wrong or distrubing because of their conotation, but... ya... the webcomic Pandect could be considered those two things. On the plus side, the number of webcomics I have bookmarked has now risen to 14 =). Just wish I could find a good one that updates on Wednessdays.
It's a few days after I started this post, and I have just finished Loveless about ten minutes ago (wish I could finish a book I feel I need to read as fast as I could finish anime). The last episode was good! Very good! But it wasn't an ending!!!!!!!!!!!!! It just... and.... glarg!!! The anime ends with a cliff hanger! Ok... I need to stop complaining about the ending. Hopefully the manga will have a better ending. At least I'll be able to watch all those Loveless AMVs that I downloaded with out fear of spoilers.
I've been playing puzzlequest while I haven't been playing Eve. The reason is that you need a little bit more innutive and a little bit more motivation in Eve then in any other game I've ever played, and I haven't had it. Instead, I've been doing a few things that are less... involved. As you can tell, that's things like anime, AMVs, and games with set objectives. I also haven't been able to progress too far with my studies... =(. I'll go to study, pull out my books, paper, and pencil, and I'll just sit there for fifthteen minutes just staring at the closed text book, not being able to bring out enough energy to open it and study. Unless the assignment is due the next day, in which case I'll finish the assignment at 3 or 4 am (not being able to start it till about midnight) and spend the rest of the night staring at my ceiling while I wait for sleep to over take me. It's starting to feel like high school again, and that was probably the worse time of my life.
Anyway, I'm going to get some sleep real quick. hopefully I'll post by next Wednessday... ~Night!
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Slowly getting back on track
Slowly trying to get back on track with normal a normal, weekly, posting schedule. Don't know if that's going to happen or not, but I'll try.
Well, my father turned 47 on the 31st of March, and I'll be turning 21 on the 11th of April. I don't plan on using the new privilage granted to 21 year olds. I'm not a big fan of drinking, and I view that I'm loud and obnoiux sober, so what would I be intoxicated?
Still, turning 21 will be kind of depressing (it kind of already has been...). I do not really know why it depresses me, but it kind of does. Anyway...
My car was parked at work yesterday, and a truck swiped the driver side mirror off my vehicle. Luckily, the guy was honest and gave me his insurance information and contact information. I just wish his insurance company would contact me, since it's unlawfull to drive with out a driver side mirror, and I don't really want another ticket! (Since I've gotten my licence, I've had 3 tickets, one for an accident, one for not wearing a seat belt, and one for a crack in my windshield. I don't want, need, or could afford, a fourth one.)
I've been spending less time playing Eve and other games (hehe, except maybe Castlevania, Symphany of the nights). Instead, I've been watching a combination of Anime and AMVs. My friends and I have been watching Chobits together, while I've been watching Loveless. The reason why I haven't been watching loveless with my friends is that Aaron is kind of... creeped out by Shonen-Ai type of anime. I personally think it's kind of cute. Anyway, after I get done with Loveless, I'll begin watching Gravitation, which is another anime that Aaron will refuse to watch. Though after Chobits Aaron, Gina, and I will probably end up watching chobits. And the best part is is that I have found a local anime warehouse to supply me with my much wanted anime =).
Hehe, and before I decide to post, I found this person to be lagging in their gamerscore...
Anyway, I need to get ready for work, and if I don't post now it'll be sitting in my to post list for about a week... so ~night!
Well, my father turned 47 on the 31st of March, and I'll be turning 21 on the 11th of April. I don't plan on using the new privilage granted to 21 year olds. I'm not a big fan of drinking, and I view that I'm loud and obnoiux sober, so what would I be intoxicated?
Still, turning 21 will be kind of depressing (it kind of already has been...). I do not really know why it depresses me, but it kind of does. Anyway...
My car was parked at work yesterday, and a truck swiped the driver side mirror off my vehicle. Luckily, the guy was honest and gave me his insurance information and contact information. I just wish his insurance company would contact me, since it's unlawfull to drive with out a driver side mirror, and I don't really want another ticket! (Since I've gotten my licence, I've had 3 tickets, one for an accident, one for not wearing a seat belt, and one for a crack in my windshield. I don't want, need, or could afford, a fourth one.)
I've been spending less time playing Eve and other games (hehe, except maybe Castlevania, Symphany of the nights). Instead, I've been watching a combination of Anime and AMVs. My friends and I have been watching Chobits together, while I've been watching Loveless. The reason why I haven't been watching loveless with my friends is that Aaron is kind of... creeped out by Shonen-Ai type of anime. I personally think it's kind of cute. Anyway, after I get done with Loveless, I'll begin watching Gravitation, which is another anime that Aaron will refuse to watch. Though after Chobits Aaron, Gina, and I will probably end up watching chobits. And the best part is is that I have found a local anime warehouse to supply me with my much wanted anime =).
Hehe, and before I decide to post, I found this person to be lagging in their gamerscore...
Anyway, I need to get ready for work, and if I don't post now it'll be sitting in my to post list for about a week... so ~night!
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Been busy
Been kind of busy recently, but I'd be lying if I said that was the reason why I haven't posted anything in a few weeks. As you can see from my last couple of posts, I haven't been too much into posting recently, and I don't know why. I mean, when I'm away from my computer, or away from home, or away from a computer, I'll want to post and update my blog, I'll want to chronical my life, but then I'll get home, sit down at my computer, start typing the next blog entry, then get one paragraph through before I close down my blog and quit for the day. It's kind of annoying, espically since it's starting to follow into my school work =(.
Well, as to some of the new stuff in my life, my sisters each got a tatoo. They both got stars on their ankels, one blue, the other green. My Dad got really upset with them over it. He has a very negative, conservative, view point on tatoos, so when he found out that two of his daughters got tatoos, well, he wasn't too happy. As to my oen viewpoint about their tatoos, I don't really care too much, it's their skin. But I do think they were some what daft for doing it while still living in my father's house.
All though I could post more, I want to get this posted before I loose more interest =(. This is my third time on this same page, so I haven't been doing too well tonight....
Well, as to some of the new stuff in my life, my sisters each got a tatoo. They both got stars on their ankels, one blue, the other green. My Dad got really upset with them over it. He has a very negative, conservative, view point on tatoos, so when he found out that two of his daughters got tatoos, well, he wasn't too happy. As to my oen viewpoint about their tatoos, I don't really care too much, it's their skin. But I do think they were some what daft for doing it while still living in my father's house.
All though I could post more, I want to get this posted before I loose more interest =(. This is my third time on this same page, so I haven't been doing too well tonight....
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Tomorrow can be a long time
I apologize for the long time since my last post. I've been kind of busy recently, with a combination of mid terms and papers. But now it's spring break, so I should have a little more free time than I ussually do. This probably means that the hours I log on EvE, and the hours I work, will both go up for this week.
The biggest thing that occured this week (other than the midterms, gah I hope I didn't do too poorly on my physics test) was that we had someone be assualted at the station. I hope the person was OK, and we're doing what we can to provide the police with evidence of the event, including copying the video cameras.
Outside of that event, I don't have much else going on right now, though I do plan on posting again in the very near future (ya, I know, I wrote that last week), so ~Night.
The biggest thing that occured this week (other than the midterms, gah I hope I didn't do too poorly on my physics test) was that we had someone be assualted at the station. I hope the person was OK, and we're doing what we can to provide the police with evidence of the event, including copying the video cameras.
Outside of that event, I don't have much else going on right now, though I do plan on posting again in the very near future (ya, I know, I wrote that last week), so ~Night.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Not Dead Yet
Contrary to popular belief, I have not fallen off the face of the earth. Instead, I've been kind of busy, and kind of lazy. Right now I have 3 tests pending on Wednessday, a research paper due Thursday, and I have just finished doing a research project for chemistry on Hydrogen Fuel Cells. Add to all that a part time job that schedules me like I'm full time, and an addiction to EVE, and well, time isn't something I have a lot of right now.
My community college has started up a gamer's club, and I have found myself in it. The first meeting was last Monday, which we spent playing Unreal Tournament on the school computers, and the school computers are really nice. A good graphics card plus 2GB of RAM. As to the people in the club, they're your standard geeky group, with similar likes in anime and gaming as myself have. Hopefully I can get an officer position in the club before I leave for UCF so I have some sort of important sounding extrcuricular activity on my transcript. I want to show the world that I'm serious about goofing off =P.
My friends and I are currently trying to get enough funds together to go to JaCon in May. It's another convention in Orlanda, though not nearly as big as Megacon. It's also almost entierly Anime focused, though in 2005 they had the people from Red Vs Blue there. I'm hoping it'll be a good time, though since we want to stay for two days, we'll need to save up for a hotel room or two =(. It's not until May though, so we have some time to save up.
Anyway, I'm going to get some sleep. I'm planning on posting again tomorrow after work though, so ~Night!
My community college has started up a gamer's club, and I have found myself in it. The first meeting was last Monday, which we spent playing Unreal Tournament on the school computers, and the school computers are really nice. A good graphics card plus 2GB of RAM. As to the people in the club, they're your standard geeky group, with similar likes in anime and gaming as myself have. Hopefully I can get an officer position in the club before I leave for UCF so I have some sort of important sounding extrcuricular activity on my transcript. I want to show the world that I'm serious about goofing off =P.
My friends and I are currently trying to get enough funds together to go to JaCon in May. It's another convention in Orlanda, though not nearly as big as Megacon. It's also almost entierly Anime focused, though in 2005 they had the people from Red Vs Blue there. I'm hoping it'll be a good time, though since we want to stay for two days, we'll need to save up for a hotel room or two =(. It's not until May though, so we have some time to save up.
Anyway, I'm going to get some sleep. I'm planning on posting again tomorrow after work though, so ~Night!
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Return from Megacon...
Well, I'm back from Megacon, and it was a lot of fun. I got to get signed pics from both Brian Clevinger (from 8-bit theater ) and Tim Buckley (from crtl alt del ). Out of the two of them, I'm going to say that Brian was by far a lot more friendly and a lot more enthusiastic towards the crowds. Tim just kind of seemed... disintrested. Still, I'm happy to have met both of them, and I got to steal their souls with my camera... =). I also got a bunch of signed prints from both of them, so that's good too.
I went to the convention wearing my foxtail, and I picked up a chocker with a bell on it and another set of cat ears to add to my "costume". It really wasn't that good of a costume, but I did get one person to ask me for my picture =). There's another convention coming to Orlando in April, so I hope to have a decent Cosplay outfit by then, since I'm hoping to attend.
Outside of the above, my friends and I also got to meet the people from red vs blue , we got to see numerous people in cosplay, and the winners of the AMV contest (we didn't realize there was more than one room being used in the convention hall until near the end time of that conteast, so we missed the bulk of the AMV's =(. )The people from Reaper minis also had a room there where one could walk in, pick up a free model, use their free paint, and walk out with your creation. So of course, we painted minis too. I'm just kind of unhappy that I couldn't do anything with shading (only had like 4 colors there, so I ended up mixing my own), but a free model is a free model...
Also, my wallet now hates me. Apparently they had cheep anime there, including the Excel Saga (so wanted to watch that), Chobits (the only place that sold it in my area had to close because the mall they were in had a deal with another company on DVDs, so I've only seen the first volume), and Hellsing (hey, I like horror...), so naturally those anime found their way into my collection. Unfortunately, after all the costs were totaled, I basicly left one paycheck in Orlando. Luckily, I had the foresight to put money away for all my bills before I left. Well, except gas, but I was able to borrow ten bucks off of Aaron for that.
As to Xboxlive and my Xboxlive gamer tag, I'll think about giving that out, though at the moment, I'm in no hurry to post it on my blog. Besides, I'm far more often mining asteroids on EVE than I am on live, which is a shame because Viva Pinata is such a good game. As to must have games for the 360, I'd recommend Oblivian for its single player, Gears of War for its Multiplayer (single player has no story or character development =(. ), Dead Rising for the Zombie Killing, and Viva Pinata for something just plain fun. As to what to get on the Arcade, Geometry Wars; Retro Evolved is good, Luminous is decent, Outpost Kutimost (Or something like that) is a pretty intresting strategy game, assualt heroes is a neat shoot em up, and any retro game you enjoyed a while back. Also, when it comes out, you might also want to pick up Catan as another strategy game, since the board game was very fun.
Anyway, I know the bulk of this post was a quick summary of megacon, but I need to call it a night. ~Night!
I went to the convention wearing my foxtail, and I picked up a chocker with a bell on it and another set of cat ears to add to my "costume". It really wasn't that good of a costume, but I did get one person to ask me for my picture =). There's another convention coming to Orlando in April, so I hope to have a decent Cosplay outfit by then, since I'm hoping to attend.
Outside of the above, my friends and I also got to meet the people from red vs blue , we got to see numerous people in cosplay, and the winners of the AMV contest (we didn't realize there was more than one room being used in the convention hall until near the end time of that conteast, so we missed the bulk of the AMV's =(. )The people from Reaper minis also had a room there where one could walk in, pick up a free model, use their free paint, and walk out with your creation. So of course, we painted minis too. I'm just kind of unhappy that I couldn't do anything with shading (only had like 4 colors there, so I ended up mixing my own), but a free model is a free model...
Also, my wallet now hates me. Apparently they had cheep anime there, including the Excel Saga (so wanted to watch that), Chobits (the only place that sold it in my area had to close because the mall they were in had a deal with another company on DVDs, so I've only seen the first volume), and Hellsing (hey, I like horror...), so naturally those anime found their way into my collection. Unfortunately, after all the costs were totaled, I basicly left one paycheck in Orlando. Luckily, I had the foresight to put money away for all my bills before I left. Well, except gas, but I was able to borrow ten bucks off of Aaron for that.
As to Xboxlive and my Xboxlive gamer tag, I'll think about giving that out, though at the moment, I'm in no hurry to post it on my blog. Besides, I'm far more often mining asteroids on EVE than I am on live, which is a shame because Viva Pinata is such a good game. As to must have games for the 360, I'd recommend Oblivian for its single player, Gears of War for its Multiplayer (single player has no story or character development =(. ), Dead Rising for the Zombie Killing, and Viva Pinata for something just plain fun. As to what to get on the Arcade, Geometry Wars; Retro Evolved is good, Luminous is decent, Outpost Kutimost (Or something like that) is a pretty intresting strategy game, assualt heroes is a neat shoot em up, and any retro game you enjoyed a while back. Also, when it comes out, you might also want to pick up Catan as another strategy game, since the board game was very fun.
Anyway, I know the bulk of this post was a quick summary of megacon, but I need to call it a night. ~Night!
Thursday, February 15, 2007
It's a Mega Con....
Well, to start things off, this Saturday I'm going to Orlando with two of my friends to hopefully get into Megacon. It'll be my first anime/gaming convention.... yay! Some of my favorite web comic artists will be there, so hopefully I might be able to pick up some prints of their stuff. We're only going to be their Saturday, and we're probably going to leave at around 7 or 8 to get back since Aaron needs to get some sleep because he works early Sunday morning. But still, it should be fun. Besides, their will be cosplayers (for once I'll be able to wear my foxtail with out being the center of attention), AMV's, webcomics, a Warhammer 40k tournament, and over priced anime novelties through out the convention.
Anyway, I would like to post a lot more, but since I'm leaving in the morning at 6am (going to pick up friends to stand in line in orlando), I need to log. I'll write again after I get back.
Anyway, I would like to post a lot more, but since I'm leaving in the morning at 6am (going to pick up friends to stand in line in orlando), I need to log. I'll write again after I get back.
Friday, February 09, 2007
The Brandenburg-Prussian Empire
Well, first off, I'm feeling better than when I was in my last post. I'm in a better mood, and I'm not soley whistling the theme to MASH at work anymore, to the joy of my coworkers. Of course, they'd like it if I were to stop whistling altogether, but, well, I enjoy whistling too much to stop in the near future.
I do have something new to whistle there, since I recently picked up the Brandenburg Conceretos. I know I normally listen to metal (it is power metal though), but I've been in the mood to listen to some classical, and since it's been a while since I heard them (the last time being in my High School Orchestra) I kind of wanted to hear them again. Out of them, 3 and 5 are probably my two favorites (I enjoyed playing three a while back), I'm not too big on the slower movements, but they're enjoyable to listen to. I also need to burn the albumn for a friend, since she plays the viola and enjoys Bach (she named her viola Johann Sebastion after the composer...). I might also download some more Bach to listen to, since his work really does deserve to be listened to, at least, if one enjoys instrumental pieces.
Been thinking about writing up an EVE fan-fic. I have the bulk of it in my head, I just need to put it on paper, and then move it from there into an electronical form. If I do write it up, I'll need to post it on both my Corp's forums and I'll try to post it on EVE's forums. Of course, I will post it here. I just need to figure out when to write it, and when to pry myself from the game to sit down and do it.
Speaking of games, DDR is coming to the 360! =). Of course, that's not really big news, since it was on the Xbox. Over the course of the last few weeks I've been able to put the first 50 dollars down on it, so when it comes out at the end of this month I'll be able to instantly look like I'm having an epeliptic seziure to JPop. Hopefully with the pad coming out, they'll also make the previous three games backwards compatible for the 360. Then I'll have 4 different versions of DDR to play on my 360.
There might be another thief at where I work. Well, maybe not exactly where I work, since she works in the Subway. There have been some oddities in the way she rings up customers, and this is a red flag because no reciept gets printed, which means that she's not putting the purchases in the system. Which means that she could be pocketing the money a customer gives her, and the system wouldn't catch it. What we do catch is that her drawer is suspiciously over. And that's bad.
Anyway, I need to get ready for work. I'm working at least 36 hours this week, probably closer to 40, 40+. Which means, on top of school, I'm going to be fairly tired by the end of the week. At least all of the hours worked are second shift, and not a sprinkling of third shift. Anyway, ~night
I do have something new to whistle there, since I recently picked up the Brandenburg Conceretos. I know I normally listen to metal (it is power metal though), but I've been in the mood to listen to some classical, and since it's been a while since I heard them (the last time being in my High School Orchestra) I kind of wanted to hear them again. Out of them, 3 and 5 are probably my two favorites (I enjoyed playing three a while back), I'm not too big on the slower movements, but they're enjoyable to listen to. I also need to burn the albumn for a friend, since she plays the viola and enjoys Bach (she named her viola Johann Sebastion after the composer...). I might also download some more Bach to listen to, since his work really does deserve to be listened to, at least, if one enjoys instrumental pieces.
Been thinking about writing up an EVE fan-fic. I have the bulk of it in my head, I just need to put it on paper, and then move it from there into an electronical form. If I do write it up, I'll need to post it on both my Corp's forums and I'll try to post it on EVE's forums. Of course, I will post it here. I just need to figure out when to write it, and when to pry myself from the game to sit down and do it.
Speaking of games, DDR is coming to the 360! =). Of course, that's not really big news, since it was on the Xbox. Over the course of the last few weeks I've been able to put the first 50 dollars down on it, so when it comes out at the end of this month I'll be able to instantly look like I'm having an epeliptic seziure to JPop. Hopefully with the pad coming out, they'll also make the previous three games backwards compatible for the 360. Then I'll have 4 different versions of DDR to play on my 360.
There might be another thief at where I work. Well, maybe not exactly where I work, since she works in the Subway. There have been some oddities in the way she rings up customers, and this is a red flag because no reciept gets printed, which means that she's not putting the purchases in the system. Which means that she could be pocketing the money a customer gives her, and the system wouldn't catch it. What we do catch is that her drawer is suspiciously over. And that's bad.
Anyway, I need to get ready for work. I'm working at least 36 hours this week, probably closer to 40, 40+. Which means, on top of school, I'm going to be fairly tired by the end of the week. At least all of the hours worked are second shift, and not a sprinkling of third shift. Anyway, ~night
Sunday, February 04, 2007
EVE addiction
Gah, been addicted to EvE-Online, and it's not that the game is that fun. CoH is actually higher in the fun-nes factor than EvE is. It's that EvE is higher in the satsifaction area than CoH. Maybe it's because it's one giant player controled economy, but everything I do in the game (mining and building wise anyways) feels like I'm doing something usefull, and the way the skills and levels work in that game give me a greater sense of achievment than what CoH gave me. Or maybe it's that the corp I'm in is more active than the Supergroup I left in CoH, or maybe it's because there are more things people can do in EVE thn just hunt and missions. I don't know, but I feel I'm more addicted to EVE than I ever was to CoH. It might also be that one of my favorite games of all time was (I'll use a Wikipedia link to satisfy those with a wiki addiction =P.) Escape Velocity Nova.
Still been fairly depressed over the last couple of days =(, and I don't actually know why. I'm fairly happy when I'm around others, but when I'm alone... well, that's when it's at its worse. Actually, it's gotten to the point where the only song I whistle at work is the themesong of MASH, and yes, I do know the lyrics. Add to that the fact that I've been listening a little too much to Sinergy's most recent albumn, and well...
Speaking of music, I finally used my Christmass gift certificate to itunes to pick up two classical music CDs. I picked up Holst's: The Planets performed by the London Symphany, and I picked up the albumn that O'Fortuna is on (it includes other poems and songs from the same illuminated manuscript it came from), performed by the Boston Symphany. I personally like the Planets better myself =), with my favorite movement from it probably being Jupiter. Mars is ok, but a little too oppressive for my tastes.
Anyway, I need to call it a night, I still have some Chemistry work to do by tomorrow at noon =(.
Still been fairly depressed over the last couple of days =(, and I don't actually know why. I'm fairly happy when I'm around others, but when I'm alone... well, that's when it's at its worse. Actually, it's gotten to the point where the only song I whistle at work is the themesong of MASH, and yes, I do know the lyrics. Add to that the fact that I've been listening a little too much to Sinergy's most recent albumn, and well...
Speaking of music, I finally used my Christmass gift certificate to itunes to pick up two classical music CDs. I picked up Holst's: The Planets performed by the London Symphany, and I picked up the albumn that O'Fortuna is on (it includes other poems and songs from the same illuminated manuscript it came from), performed by the Boston Symphany. I personally like the Planets better myself =), with my favorite movement from it probably being Jupiter. Mars is ok, but a little too oppressive for my tastes.
Anyway, I need to call it a night, I still have some Chemistry work to do by tomorrow at noon =(.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Last post of January 07
You know, I've realized something... my titles are getting less innovative as the days go on. I'm going to need to try to fix that in the near future.
Not much new has happened in the terms of events. I'm still working a combination of day and night shifts, along with taking morning classes. As such, I am really tired. And I'm starting to think (err.... been thinking it really since high school), that the more tired I get (ie, when I go 24+ hours with out sleep, then only get 4 hours of sleep for the next day) the more depressed I get, and the more my thoughts linger upon things that make me... unhappy. Not going to go into more details than that, at least not on my blog. Of course, I could also tribute the depression to the betrayel of trust from those employees in the previous post, or to how it's the middle of winter, or to how Valentines Day is coming up and I'll be alone for it (20th time =(.), or a thousand other things. But ya... I'm feeling much better now than I was this time last week.
Got to see Spamalot on Sunday with my family. Pretty funny show, though they took out my favorite part of the Monty Python and the Holy Grail, which was the witch trial. Still, they made up for it in other, more humerous ways. But a few songs and jokes in the musical are visual specific, while others reference other Monty Python Jokes. For example, one of the songs they sung in it was the ending song of Life of Brian, which I just broke into laughter that they used it. Anyway, it was a good show.
Finished reading A Clockwork Orange. It was OK, and I can see why it was considered a classic, but I'm not to big a fan of crime and such things. Still, his writing style is unique, and his concept of making a crimal be able to perform good "like clockwork" is interesting.
Anyway, I'm going to call it a night. Night!
Edit: I'm looking foreward to a certain blog getting an update =P.
Not much new has happened in the terms of events. I'm still working a combination of day and night shifts, along with taking morning classes. As such, I am really tired. And I'm starting to think (err.... been thinking it really since high school), that the more tired I get (ie, when I go 24+ hours with out sleep, then only get 4 hours of sleep for the next day) the more depressed I get, and the more my thoughts linger upon things that make me... unhappy. Not going to go into more details than that, at least not on my blog. Of course, I could also tribute the depression to the betrayel of trust from those employees in the previous post, or to how it's the middle of winter, or to how Valentines Day is coming up and I'll be alone for it (20th time =(.), or a thousand other things. But ya... I'm feeling much better now than I was this time last week.
Got to see Spamalot on Sunday with my family. Pretty funny show, though they took out my favorite part of the Monty Python and the Holy Grail, which was the witch trial. Still, they made up for it in other, more humerous ways. But a few songs and jokes in the musical are visual specific, while others reference other Monty Python Jokes. For example, one of the songs they sung in it was the ending song of Life of Brian, which I just broke into laughter that they used it. Anyway, it was a good show.
Finished reading A Clockwork Orange. It was OK, and I can see why it was considered a classic, but I'm not to big a fan of crime and such things. Still, his writing style is unique, and his concept of making a crimal be able to perform good "like clockwork" is interesting.
Anyway, I'm going to call it a night. Night!
Edit: I'm looking foreward to a certain blog getting an update =P.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Crime and Punishment
First off, I've been spending way too much time playing EVE. Since I've started, I've probably been spending 25-35 hours a week on it, which is about 10 hours more a week then I ussually spend gaming. On the down side, it's kind of hurt the amount of sleep I get, but on the plus side I'm saving money in the gas I'm not using to drive to places.
As to the review of the game, the best way to describe it is as the anti-CoH. Where CoH is mission driven, has a rigidly defined class and leveling structure, and no economy to speak of, EVE is economicly driven, has an open to all skill system, and its economy can best be described as capatalistic. There are missions in the game, but rather than tell an interesting and immeservie story, they're there to help one gain standing with NPC corporations and Factions. The crafting system is different, and not only are there skills to improve one's ability to craft, one can also invest time and money to improve the default blue prints, which is pretty nice. The skills in the game, as I said earlier, are open to anyone. When you start the game, you choose some basic skills and attributes. You then can improve those skills, and buy new ones. Skills improve based upon time, litterary. You choose a skill to train, click train skill, and it will begin training to the next level. The speed at which it trains is determined not by how often you perform the action, but by your learning skill ranks. Of course, regardless, it can take a long time to learn some skills (Training Industry to level 5 taks about 10 days with decent learning skill ranks.) Luckily, you can train your skills with out actually being logged in, just set one before you log out.
Now that the (poorly done) EVE review is handled, on to more pressing things about life. I spent 30 hours at the gas station over the weekend, and the reason for that is that we fired 2 of the 3 people who worked night shift for theft. What they stole was lottery tickets to feed their gambling habbits. I don't think it was for the money, but I could be wrong. I know that one of the two had a major gambling problem, and because of this incident we are now sending home any employee caught playing the lottery while on the clock. I thought they were honest until they did this, and for their betrayal, I hope they rot in Hell for it. It's not just the money that it makes it bad, it's their deseption, and their apparent apathy towards the fact that they're doing this to their benefactor, and I feel horrible that this happened.
School is going ok, though I'm going to need to find a text book for my chem class. I'm actually not all there in terms of school this semester. I'm fairly lethergic this semester, and I've already missed my European History course twice this semester. That's kind of bad, considering that the semester started less than a month ago. It's that my job and all my other classes are night, or close to it, while this class is morning. I'm (currently) on good terms with the teacher, so I'll talk to him about it, maybe get some suggestions on what to do. Ya, I know, going to sleep before midnight might help, but I normally don't get home until midnight, which can make going to sleep before then either impossible, or dangerous (sleeping on the road is not a good idea).
I have about a thousand other things I'd like to post today, including the fact that I'm upset that I can't seem post more than once a week at best =(, but all those things are going to have to wait till a day I don't need to get ready for my dead end conscripted job. So ~night!
As to the review of the game, the best way to describe it is as the anti-CoH. Where CoH is mission driven, has a rigidly defined class and leveling structure, and no economy to speak of, EVE is economicly driven, has an open to all skill system, and its economy can best be described as capatalistic. There are missions in the game, but rather than tell an interesting and immeservie story, they're there to help one gain standing with NPC corporations and Factions. The crafting system is different, and not only are there skills to improve one's ability to craft, one can also invest time and money to improve the default blue prints, which is pretty nice. The skills in the game, as I said earlier, are open to anyone. When you start the game, you choose some basic skills and attributes. You then can improve those skills, and buy new ones. Skills improve based upon time, litterary. You choose a skill to train, click train skill, and it will begin training to the next level. The speed at which it trains is determined not by how often you perform the action, but by your learning skill ranks. Of course, regardless, it can take a long time to learn some skills (Training Industry to level 5 taks about 10 days with decent learning skill ranks.) Luckily, you can train your skills with out actually being logged in, just set one before you log out.
Now that the (poorly done) EVE review is handled, on to more pressing things about life. I spent 30 hours at the gas station over the weekend, and the reason for that is that we fired 2 of the 3 people who worked night shift for theft. What they stole was lottery tickets to feed their gambling habbits. I don't think it was for the money, but I could be wrong. I know that one of the two had a major gambling problem, and because of this incident we are now sending home any employee caught playing the lottery while on the clock. I thought they were honest until they did this, and for their betrayal, I hope they rot in Hell for it. It's not just the money that it makes it bad, it's their deseption, and their apparent apathy towards the fact that they're doing this to their benefactor, and I feel horrible that this happened.
School is going ok, though I'm going to need to find a text book for my chem class. I'm actually not all there in terms of school this semester. I'm fairly lethergic this semester, and I've already missed my European History course twice this semester. That's kind of bad, considering that the semester started less than a month ago. It's that my job and all my other classes are night, or close to it, while this class is morning. I'm (currently) on good terms with the teacher, so I'll talk to him about it, maybe get some suggestions on what to do. Ya, I know, going to sleep before midnight might help, but I normally don't get home until midnight, which can make going to sleep before then either impossible, or dangerous (sleeping on the road is not a good idea).
I have about a thousand other things I'd like to post today, including the fact that I'm upset that I can't seem post more than once a week at best =(, but all those things are going to have to wait till a day I don't need to get ready for my dead end conscripted job. So ~night!
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Viva 07
First off, I need to welcome in the new year! Happy 07 everyone, and although it still feels like just another day has passed, somehow we need to feel special that the calendar companies are making money again.
Well, school has started up again, and I kind of want to go, kind of don't. I am happy that I somehow made my classes such that 3 days a week I can sleep in till 11, while the other 2 I need to wake up at 8. Weekends don't count when messuring sleep in time =P. I'm also happy that I'll be going back to an accademic setting. It's just that... I don't know, it might just be that I've spent too much time there. This should be my last semester there, than I'll go on to a university, hopefully UCF.
I've temporarily suspeneded my CoH account. I've played it for about 20 months, and I kind of feel I need a change. I will miss it, and I do plan on being back to that game. Instead, I'm trying out EVE-Online. So far it has a few things I like, and a few things I dislike. I'll write a review on it in my next blog.
Also, as the title implies, I've picked up Viva Pinata! Very fun, cute game for the 360 =).
Well, school has started up again, and I kind of want to go, kind of don't. I am happy that I somehow made my classes such that 3 days a week I can sleep in till 11, while the other 2 I need to wake up at 8. Weekends don't count when messuring sleep in time =P. I'm also happy that I'll be going back to an accademic setting. It's just that... I don't know, it might just be that I've spent too much time there. This should be my last semester there, than I'll go on to a university, hopefully UCF.
I've temporarily suspeneded my CoH account. I've played it for about 20 months, and I kind of feel I need a change. I will miss it, and I do plan on being back to that game. Instead, I'm trying out EVE-Online. So far it has a few things I like, and a few things I dislike. I'll write a review on it in my next blog.
Also, as the title implies, I've picked up Viva Pinata! Very fun, cute game for the 360 =).
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