It is History

I can't sleep, so I decided to post on my blogg. The first thing of note is that I got to see the circus! There is something about the circus that still appeals to me, and I'm not too sure what it is. It was neat, though, to see it. They had trained house cats that performed tricks! Housecats! They also had pretty neat acrobatics, the standard elephant thing, and a few clown acts. It was very enjoyable, and different.

My friend Will and I kind of have this geeky DnD thing we've been working on for a long period of time. It's a campaign setting that, although we haven't played in it for a few years, we still write up ideas for it. It has numerous nations and coninents, and the basic theme of the setting is a balance between good and evil. The setting is politically set up similarly to the cold war, with one good superpower and one evil superpower devided by a giant ocean. The minor countries are pawns for these powers, and each country is trying to bring down the other. I do this thing with the good super power that annoys Will. A few years ago, we were playing basicly the last game we've played in the setting, and I somehow managed to be the DM. Anyway, I had the characters go to a small town north of the capital of the good country, and I didn't have a name for it, so I created one off the top of my head. I called the town Nutmeg. My friend really hated that name, and vows never to let the town stay in the setting. Just to annoy him, everytime I have something new for the good country, I place it in Nutmeg, which then produces a loud argument from Will about how Nutmeg doesn't exist, to which I just giggle at. It's fun bringing up Nutmeg to him... it just is...

My classes have started. Well, technicly, they started Thursday. Why they decided to start classes in the middle of the week I don't know, but they did. I have Calc 2, Physics, and Chem. I am not lloking foreward to Chem, largely because of how I did in it back in Highschool. I got a D in it back in Highschool, and I think that was largely because the teacher was nice. I mean, a lot of chemistry just kind of seems... unimportant to me. The entire subject is about figuring out how very small things interact with other very small things, something I don't really care for. Figuring out how to make something go boom, or how to make various things work in a chemical way, does not appeal to me. Now physics on the other hand...

Of course, with the start of the new classes, my parents bumbard me with the cliched question of "Is there any one you like in any of your classes?" They pester me more about my love life then they do my sisters, despite the fact that I've been in more relationships than they have. I mean, I will admit that I am lonely. One can easily tell that by the fact that I keep a blogg. But why they keep pestering me about it, I have no idea. But it could be worse, they could be telling me NOT to be in a relationship. I mean, I am 19... I guess they just want grandchildren, and they figure that out of their three children, I am the most likely to have kids. Kind of makes me feel bad about my sisters, though. I mean, I am a techie, and if my parents think I have a better chance...

I would like to have kids. If I could choose my future, it would include 2 children, a two story house, a white picket fence, and a place in Suburbia. I don't really want an exciting future. But I don't want to come home to an empty apartment, either. I'm afraid that that will be how my future will end up, with me working long hours at work just so that I don't have to view how crappy my social life is. It doesn't look too good right now. Right now, epic social events are hanging out with one or two friends at the local Dennys. My social life is pretty pathetic.=(

I'm a techie, though, because I didn't fit in with anything else when I was younger. I wasn't one of the popular kids, I wasn't into anything that any one else was into, so life was pretty lonely. On top of that, we were in the only house in our neighborhood that had children, so that wasn't good. So I got into gaming. Sim City, Civilzation, Tetris, Mario, Metroid, those where what I did while younger. They're still what I do, and is probably why I have the world's best social life. Would I change my past, though? I mean, I wouldn't want to be one of those preppy, stuck up, popular girls, but to be something inbetween the loner and the popular ones, ya. But if that happened, I probably wouldn't have met the people I know now. Which would be a bad thing. I wouldn't trade my friends for the world, even those obscure friends who I only hear from once in a great while because they're never online **ahem**ahem**. But I do wish I was one of the middle of the line social-ish girls. Maybe I wouldn't be lonely, then.

Anyway, now my mind is kind of empty, so I should be able to get some sleep now. Anyway, night!~